JANJI ALLAH

Allah dah janji. Doa-doa orang yang teraniaya itu makbul. Maka jika kau rasa kau teraniaya, berdoalah. Mudah-mudahan Allah setuju.

Tetapi atas dasar apa doa itu? Doa untuk membalas dendamkah? Doa untuk melihat keruntuhan diakah? Doa semoga dia sengsarakah?

Tidak. Bagi aku, sebaik-baik doa adalah ‘aku telah memaafkan kesalahan kau keatasku dan segala perbuatan kau keatasku dan semoga Allah juga  mengampunkan dosa-dosa yang telah kau lakukan keatasNya’.

Kerana apa? Kerana bagi aku Allah lebih tau apa yang terbaik untuk setiap hamba-hambanya. Allah lebih arif pembalasan apakah yang paling setimpal buat dia. Mungkin hati ini meronta untuk membalas dendam. Mungkin mulut ini paling senang untuk ucapkan ‘aku tak akan maafkan dia’. Tapi sampai bila?

Allah dah kata, kalau kau berbuat silap sesama manusia maka minta maaflah kepada manusia itu sendiri. Jika sehingga ke mati kau belum meminta maaf maka carilah dia untuk meminta maaf di akhirat kelak. Tapi, hendakkah kita menangguhkan perjalanan kita di akhirat kelak semata-mata kerana masih ada insan-insan yang tengah berusaha merangkak mencari kemaafan kita? Dia mungkin lambat ke tempat perhitungan kerana kesalahan dia tapi kau kena ingat, kau juga mungkin lambat kerana harus menantikannya. Berbaloikah?

Bagi aku, tidak. Kerana apa? Kerana biar sahaja Allah yang menghitung kesalahan dia. Kita bukan maksum. Kita hanya hamba Allah yang biasa. Maka sebaiknya biarlah dia bersuka ria meraikan kemenangannya di dunia ini selagi boleh. Kerana di akhirat kelak akan ada satu lagi perhitungan buat dia. Di situ, yang benar pasti benar dan yang salah pasti salah. Itu ketetapan Allah.

Sehingga hari itu datang. Maafkanlah dia dan bergembiralah. Allah tahu semua yang benar dan Allah tak akan pernah membiarkan yang salah itu berlalu pergi.

P/s: Janji Allah itu pasti. Yakin dan fahamkan. 

cuma seorang hamba Allah,

-Shaff-

Layakkah kita?

Manusia mengeluh bila ditimpa kesusahaan tapi terlupa untuk bersyukur atas seribu kebaikan.

Sedar tak kita bahawa Allah tak tarik satu pun nikmat daripada kita, tapi tak pernah pula kita bersyukur. Sebab apa? Sebab selagi kita tak nampak ada benda hilang kita lupa benda itu hanya pinjaman.

Allah Cuma tambah satu sahaja lagi beban atas bahu kita itu pun kita dah mengeluh macam esok dah hilang nyawa. Sebab apa? Sebab fitrah manusia, yang beban nak diungkit yang nikmat lupa nak disyukuri.

Jadi, layakkah kita mengeluh lagi?

Hutang manusia dengan manusia sampai kau sanggup berbunuhan. Tapi hutang manusia dengan Allah tiada siapa pula yang peduli.  Sebab apa? Sebab kita lupa azab neraka itu selagi tak timbul depan mata. Kau berhutang dengan manusia kau fikir sampai tak boleh tidur malam. Punyalah gelisah. Takut dengan manusia punya pasal . Tapi bila kau hutang solat dengan Allah, tak solat isya’ pun kau mampu lagi tidur nyenyak sampai ke pagi sampai terhutang pula solat subuh. Bila nak bayar tu? Tak gelisah pun. Maksudnya apa? Tak takut dengan Allah kah?  

Jadi, layakkah kita mengeluh lagi?

Hutang rumah, hutang ptptn, hutang kredit kad semua tu ada dateline yang kau boleh nampak tapi kau takut bukan main lagi. Hutang Allah yang kau tak nampak dateline tu sikit pun kau tak takut. Mana tau tidur malam ni esok Allah dah tarik nyawa. Tak risaukah? Kalau risau kenapa tak peduli?

Dalam Allah bagi ujian tu Dia tak tarik satu pun lagi nikmat daripada kau yang Dia bagi selama ini. selagi kau masih ada atap di atas kepala, kau masih ada kesihatan yang terjaga, kau masih ada juadah di atas meja, bersyukurlah.  Sebab semua itu bukan hak milik mutlak pun. Mana tau esok-esok dah tiada.  Selagi masih ada nyawa dalam jasad kau, bersyukurlah. Itu tandanya masih ada masa untuk kau selesaikannya. Allah tak bagi ujian itu tanpa sebab.  Allah bagi ujian itu untuk tengok sejauh mana kau yakin dengan Dia. Kalau awal lagi kau dah merungut, itu tandanya awal lagi kau dah kandas, awal lagi kau dah tewas. Asyik nak senang saja, buat apa hidup atas dunia? Ingatlah, dunia bukan tempat untuk bersenang-lenang, tapi dunia hanyalah tempat persinggahan untuk kumpul dana supaya kita dapat bersenang-lenang di syurga. Kucing di jalanan pun Allah tak bagi makan free tanpa usaha, inikan pula manusia.

Jadi, layakkah kita mengeluh lagi?

Satu saja soalan aku nak tanya. Andai kata Allah bagi pilihan pada kau untuk Dia tarik balik satu sahaja nikmat dari kau demi menyelesaikan segala masalah yang kau ada, nikmat apakah yang sanggup kau korbankan? Kesihatankah? Anak isterikah? Mak ayahkah? Pekerjaankah? Nyawakah? Kalau satu pun bukan, layakkah kau mengeluh?

Dalam sebegitu banyak nikmat yang Dia bagi siapa kita untuk mempersoalkan sedikit masalah yang Dia suruh kita tempuh.

Hidup. Hadap. Itu sahaja.

P/s: saling ingat-mengingati. sebab itu sahaja yang aku mampu. 

xoxo,

-Shaff-

..because its not easy being me..

I love my life. I really do. But just because I love it does not mean that I live it in a smooth sailing life with a fairy tale kind of ending. It was not. Trust me. Those fairy tale kind of ending meant for a fairy only and thats why they called it a fairy tale not a human tale.

In a human tale,
you were not born with a silver spoon in your mouth. You have to work for it. No such thing as free lunch. Nobodies born as a princess except 'the princess'.

In human tale,
you have to think about your future. What you want to do and what you want to be. Its always in need of a series of brainstorming and brainwashing and reverse psychology. No family empayar that you just have to take your turn and run it.

In human tale,
you have to choose between two things thats not obvious which one is better so you always end up making a wrong decision. No true or false scale and of course cannot judge it according to one look (as bad things always been drawn ugly in fairy tales).

In human tale,
you suffers a multi million type of emotions and stumble around over and over again until the end of the day. Not just a basic fairy tales emotions where you were either happy or..happy.

In human tale,
there is no fairy god mother to help you make your bed or finish up your chores or simplify your day. You dont even have a pet who can talk!

In human tale,
you don't marry a prince! (yeah..okay..except for Kate Middleton.duh!) not only that, you don't even meet the prince to start with.

BUT

what I can say is..

To be a human,
you were given a choice either to lead your life like a princess or better off a king or a queen. Because its your own life we're talking about.Its up to you how you mold it. You may not be a princess to a kingdom but you are a princess to your friends, families and everyone around you. Take charge!

To be a human,
you were meant to be creating your own path be it in career, lifestyle or futures. Why take up others empayar if you can create one by your own? Be independent!

To be a human,
you can let go of your emotions out loud. Freedom of expressions can be in many ways. Write it, draw it, talk about it, ramble it, cry over it, get up when you fall, jump high when you win, sleep, eat, run, do whatever you want as long as you keep living and standing, you're a winner. Be strong!

To be a human,
you have Allah to help you. The almighty Allah is the only one who can help you in this life. Just pray for it. You have Al-Quran and sunnah as your guidance and reference. Learn it and never leave it. And you still have your pet although not to help you but to give you something to cuddle and its cute! Be positive!

To be a human (not Kate Middleton!),
you have your own fair share of happiness. You may not marry a prince but you can choose to marry a nice person who you can count on and can make you as happy as a princess in a fairy tale where they live happily ever after.( you can even marry in a pumpkin carriage and the white horse if you want to. seriously! ) because to have a successful relationship is not about finding the right person, but learning to love the person you found. At the end of the day, love is a decision and not just a feeling. God determines who walks into your life BUT its you who decide who you let to walk away, who you let to stay and who you never let GO! Be happy!

P/s:Being me Is what I want!

XOXO,
Shaff

Some kind of Valedictory speech

sebab best student dapat buat valedictory speech kite pun nak la jugak kan..cuma yg membezakannya adalah best student dapat present his speech during the convocation ceremony and saya just dapat type jela..haha.. here it goes...

after all those struggling years..this is the day that im waiting for. the day where all the hard work were paid for. a degree scroll !!! its like a pay cheque for the labours except you will only get it once and for all..and its not money!

One and a half year of foundations studies and four years of degree is impossible to be done and over with without some special force from some special people and of course the almighty Allah s.w.t.

special thanks goes to..

mak and abah,
I wouldn't be here if not because of both of you. I would probably left law school long time ago if not because of your moral support. Thanks for those hard work to convince me that this is the right place for me. Thanks for those motivational talk every single moment. Thanks for listening to my ramblings. Thanks for comforting me whenever I had those stressful moment. Thanks so much from the deep of my heart for everything that I failed to mention here. Thank you for being such a great parents.

my kakak and two adik,
my world would probably turn upside down if you guys were not there. Thanks for being such a wonderful siblings cum bestfriends, for being the most loyal people and stand beside me through thick and thin (although you guys had no other choice but to be there as we are siblings..haha), for showing me that a failure is never a failure but just a second chance for us to keep going, for your understanding as I can be a little bit intolerable sometimes and for your honest comment that somehow grown me up. Thank you for being my kakak and my adik-adik (but we were more like happy friends living together..^^)

my bestest girlfriend ever,
siapalah saya di Aikol itu tanpa korang semua..haha. You guys are my bestfriends, roomates, classmates, mooting partners, groupmates assignments and everything that we can possibly be during the past 6 years..and counting! Thanks for become a shoulder for me to lean on, thanks for wiping my tears and listening to my sobbing, thanks for letting me cry randomly, thanks for keep supporting me throughout my failures and be there throughout my success, thanks for being my comrade to walk through this journey. congratulations,at last we all made it together. All our hard work were paid for!

my classmates,partners,seniors,juniors,girlfriends and boyfriends,
yeah..whomever you are im glad you all were once there to keep this life more interesting. my student's life would not be this interesting if none of you were there . seriously! we met we not understand why but we learn something more than money can buy and more than life can trade. Thank you for willing to be a part of my life story.

my lectures and tutors,
what can I say more. Obviously you guys are the most important people that brings me to where I am today. Despite my poor performance in class and my lack of participation in tutorials tapi anda semua tak pernah menolak kehadiran saya di iium.that im glad!

my supporting team,
ini termasuklah makcik kantin,abang photostat,kakak office,adik jaga kiosks,pakcik guard dan makcik guard dan semua yang terlibat menjaga keharmonian kehidupan saya sepanjang belajar disini. Tanpa korang kualiti hidup saya terjejas..hehe.much thanks!

my extra supporting team,
ini termasuk perkara2 yang berada di alam maya iaitu social media, google search, wikipedia, lexisnexis, lawnet, opac and ecetra yang tak pernah menghampakan saya sepanjang proses pembelajaran. (kena hantar thank you note nih..haha)

last but not least thank you to iium itself for accepting me to be a part of the team in this garden or knowledge and virtue.

I thank all of you with all my heart. Alhamdulillah and Thank you ^.^

p/s; ucapan yang agak poyo ini ikhlas datang dari sudut hati yang paling dalam..hehe.

sincerely from LLB(Hons)holder,
XXSHAFFXX

Kisah jodoh

Jodoh itu salah satu rezeki dari Allah. salah satu rahsia Allah yang sampai bila-bila pun kita takkan dapat tahu apa yang tersirat di sebaliknya. Yang kita sedar hanya the fact that indeed jodoh itu datang dan pergi tanpa sebarang warning beforehand. yang ada ditangan kita hanyalah pilihan sama ada untuk mengenggam rezeki jodoh itu atau membiarkan ia pergi. still at the end of the day kita tak akan tahu pun keputusan apa yang terbaik sebenarnya. Hanya perlu yakin yang segala yang berlaku tentu ada hikmah di sebaliknya.

Jodoh itu datang dalam pelbagai bentuk. persahabatan, persaudaraan, kekeluargaan, jodoh sebagai guru dan murid, jodoh sebagai bos dan pekerja ataupun yang paling menjadi hukum norma adalah jodoh sebagai suami isteri.

setelah jodoh itu hadir, ada sesuatu lagi yang belum kita pasti dan tak mungkin akan kita pasti sampai bila-bila, iaitu sampai bila jodoh itu akan dapat bertahan. Bukan kerana salah sesiapa tetapi memang itu yang telah ditetapkan. sekali lagi dijelaskan bahawa jodoh itu rezeki, dan rezeki itu mungkin hak kita untuk jangka masa yang lama dan boleh jadi jugak hanya untuk sementara.

Jadi, dapat disimpulkan disini bahawa, apabila rezeki jodoh itu hadir dalam apa jua bentuk sekalipun, jangan begitu mudah menolaknya tanpa usul periksa juga jangan terlalu taksub mendakapnya tanpa sebarang batasan. Bersederhanalah dan bersyukurlah. Selagi rezeki itu ada dalam genggaman jagalah ia sebaiknya kerana kita tidak tahu bila waktunya ia akan ditarik balik dari genggaman, dan bila rezeki itu ditarik balik, redhakanlah ia pergi kerana segala sesuatu itu bukan hak mutlak sesiapa kecuali Allah.

Selagi masih bernafas kita di muka bumi ini selagi itu masih berpeluang untuk kita mendapat rezeki dari yang maha esa. selagi terdaya, berusaha, berdoa dan bertawakkal semoga dimurahkan segala rezeki dan dipermudahkan segala urusan. Amin.

p/s; alhamdulillah for today. pray for a better tomorrow.

xoxo,
shaff

Damn this feelings!

Kenapa perasaan manusia sangat complicated?

Tak boleh ke kalau rasa nak marah terus je marah or kalau rasa nak menangis terus je menangis or kalau rasa happy terus je cakap yes I'm happy..

Kenapa perlu ada rasa sakit hati sebab pendam kemarahan and rasa sesak dada sebab tahan air mata or rasa ego nak mengaku yang indeed I'am happy with him!

Damn this feeling!

Dulu aku tak macam ni pun..dulu akulah manusia paling cool..tak reti nak sentap-sentap, tak reti nak leleh air mata..

Sekarang aku jadi sangat fragile. Aku jadi sangat sensitif. Semua benda nak sentap.

Damn this feeling!

Mana perginya aku yang dulu?

Get a grip please!

Jangan mudah tumbang dengan perasaan.
Perasaan perlukan perisai.
Perasaan perlukan hati yang kental.
Perasaan tak perlukan emosi yang tak menentu.

Get a grip!

If you can't let go of the feelings, make sure you get a shield for those feelings..



The confused one,
-shaff-

Almost ended..

salam,

Its June already. Time flies and we don't even realize it.
Nasib baik ada calendar as a reminder, if not kita semua confirm dah hanyut dengan masa.
what's more important is my first sem for my second degree almost ended!
Rasa macam baru semalam je pergi beratur dekat AMAD untuk registeration and sekarang dah nak habis pun. Sekarang tengah final exam and tinggal satu paper je lagi before semua ni berakhir. Tapi bukanlah berakhir as in forever sebab saya still ada one more sem to go..still berakhirnya sem ni is one major relief for me. Suffer? yess! Hate? nopeee..

Mula-mula memang suffer. Dah berapa kali dah plan nak lari je dari sini and start kerja macam kawan-kawan lain tapi kalau dah memang tertulis dan termaktub bahawa rezeki saya is here, siapa yang boleh ubah kan? Create lah seribu alasan pun, Failed lah sejuta paper pun last-last dekat sini jugak. Register untuk sambung another degree and bang! macam tu je accepted.

And again, kisah suffering time first degree dulu pun berulanglah dengan jayanya..test failed, assingment last minute, tutorial yang menyesakkan nafas, presentations yang menggetarkan segala sendi lutut and yeah..everything in between it. But, one good thing about time is, it sure flies diligently and at the end of the day, hardship ends...

After all those hardships, yang tinggal for me is 3 month worth of holidays before i start back with the second semester. I think that's pretty cool! I can play all day long and play all day long and play allll dayyy looogggg...!!

Till then...tata^^

p/s: wanna play all day long with me?? hehe

The excited me,
<3 shaff <3

missing home=(

This is just a short note..
about me missing home.
i miss home.
home miss me?
why me not at home although its a week hols?
HOMEWORK!
me need to do assignment.
me need to study for test.
me need to prepare for presentation.
Me.Is.Hate.School.Now!! huh!
owh yeah, one more reason is,
me can't buy flight's ticket coz its too expensive.
(Rm300 for one way. baik aku beli ticket pegi London tengok London bridge!!...*sarcastic)
me is hate the airbus!! huh!
me need private plane like right now!

p/s:forgive the bad grammar.me is not in 'perfect english' mood.

theonewhostuckedatSchool,
-shaff-