I’m not saying being me is good..

I’m not saying living in my life is splendid..

But, what I’m gonna say is just have a taste a little bit of my life and tell me how it really is..

Hear my story..

Spill if you want and swallow if you like..

Shaff-story..is a tale..a taste of me~shaff

Sunday, October 28, 2012

The E-day!!


To my dearest cousin and childhood bff...this post is specially for you! (hehe..terharu tak??..)

First of all..of course i have to say congratulation!!! tahniah tahniah..you are now someone's fiancé =)

second of all..sorry sebab i was not there..

third of all..i will surely be there on the wedding day! promise!!

honestly, saya nak sangat attend the engagement ceremony awak but then masa saya sangat terhad. when it come to time it become the most reliable excuse. nasib baik gambar-gambar awak dah diupload bolehla saya tgk...hehe. you look so happy and so beautiful..seriously! the only missing thing in the picture is me!  maybe i should consider crop my picture and paste dekat tengah2 gambar awak tu kan..haha.

ingat tak zaman kita kecik-kecik dulu..kita selalu borak pasal all the girls stuff and kawen is always in the list. and kita siap promise lagi tak nak couple and nak bercinta selepas kawen..nampak sangat dari kecik dah terpengaruh dengan novel cinta tapi its not a bad thing pun kan.. and hari ini awak dah buktikan it really can happen accordingly.

hidup nie jauh lagi..and berkahwin tu cuma satu lagi permulaan untuk hidup. saya akan selalu doakan kebahagiaan awak..i'm not in a position to give you all the marriage advises sebab i'm not married myself but the only thing i can tell you is just please be happy and if there is any probs along the way just remember that i'm always here to help=)

and here is the pics!!! (seriously i should just crop my pic and paste it in there!)

it's a one beautiful day!!

Rasulullah Shallallahu ‘alaihi wa Sallam bersabda:

خَيْرُ النِّكَاحِ أَيْسَرُهُ

“Sebaik-baik pernikahan adalah yang paling mudah.” (Hadis Riwayat Abu Daud, 6/13, no. 1808. Dinilai sahih oleh al-Albani)

(p/s: what do you want for your wedding gift??)


Friday, October 12, 2012

fate and dream

5 years ago I still wearing my school uniform, attend school diligently and struggle for SPM…ok, honestly not that struggle or else I would be on the front page of newspaper already holding my straight A's transcript…still I've past all that.

At this minute I'm already in university and in my final year . Reading laws….time flies and I never realize it. Never had a slightest idea that this would be my fate and fated to be. Never in my list to take law as my subject and nothing in me that I can perceive as a future advocates and solicitor. I never thought I could do it but as I realize today I'm already half way through. Keep surviving a little more and I would be holding my double degree in civil and syariah law….who can predict that ?

The me that I see several years ago is just a little me with a dream to be a fashion designer and have my own boutique. That's the thing I always dream for since a little girl. Life lead me to a different path. I'm no way heading to anything called fashion and boutique….who can predict that?
Reading laws for all this years never stop me from building some hope else where. I still have my dream of becoming fashion's designer within me somewhere in my heart. I still doing some fashion sketches in my free time and I'm still sewing some materials here and there. Although I know this lead me to nothing but I did not expect for something. I already accept everything my life had gave to me.

Until one phone call change everything….a call that stated that I've been given the opportunity to do fashion designing course…with the condition I finish up my law degree first…the call that gave me new hope and the call that make me dare to dream again….who can predict that?
Some cheer for me and some say its a waste to abandon my law degree and some think I would waste all my time starting to study all over again but just so you know no one can put me down anymore. All this days I've done what I need to do but today its time for me to do what I want to do. Not a scroll that says degree and have my name on it that I'm looking for but a real experience and skills I'll get along the way that I've dream of.
World may need a person's formal qualifications but I only need my dream and I'll work with nothing but happiness.

A year later..
What had been wrote up there is what's on my though that time..then now I'm updating the though seriously. That day,Yes I'm happy to get the opportunity to do fashion designing. But today, I' don't know if I'am that happy anymore. Since the day I got the good news I search all day long about the courses and the thing is…it is way too expensive! And until today I still studying and living on my parents cost. And not a single cent I pay them back. If I were to enroll again in fashion school it will take them to spend a whole lot fortune all over again on me. I seriously don't want that. I'am now in my final sem of law degree. Insyaallah I will grad soon. And my though is, I want to pay them back. My only dream now is to grad and get a proper job, to make my parents proud and to pay all the love they gave to me until today. I'm happy as I am today. Yes, fashion designing is my dream but not all dream can come true and I believe Allah have better plan for me in this path. Just pray for the best!

p/s: Allah tahu apa yang terbaik untuk kita!


After a long hiatus..


    After stuck agak lama depan lappy..this is how it goes…

  1. When was the last time I saw this blog?? …(long pause..no answer!) true. Because me myself donno how long it is. Bukan nak suruh update blog, bukak tengok pun tak..penat je nuffnang update iklan hari-hari, tak dapat nak tgk. Reason is: busy?..(too lame excuse), no internet?..(yes but its been long since I registered for free wifi)..real is..hati terasa keberatan nak tulis. Sebabnya I though no one would read it so most of the time I wrote random stuff. Then bila saya dapat tau ada insan yang baca all the random stuff saya jadi segan dengan diri sendiri. I feel that I should have write better. Saya yang lame sebenarnya. This blog is public so everyone have their right to read it. Saya masih di takuk lama. Saya masih seorang shaff yang secretive. It took me this long hiatus to get a grip and keep writing sebab that person yang read all my entries said that 'memang purpose blog is for everyone to read it so kenapa nak malu pulak..' (awak, if you happen to read this..no offence okey.=) and it took me this long hiatus untuk just be brave and write again.

  2. I actually still wrote some stuff but I keep it saved in my lappy. Thanks kepada microsoft kerana telah mencipta program Microsoft Office One Note. This one note thingy is super cool. it is as if you were writing in your blog but in offline mode. The feeling is the same tapi korang tau for sure no one will read it. So after this I will upload all stuff that I've been wrote all this while into the real blog sebab sekarang saya macam dah found a reason to write again.

  3. I'm in my final sem already..Insyaallah will grad soon. Busy but still myself with the same lifestyle, with the same bestfriends and with the same status!..hehe.( lame tak? Almost a year hiatus but I'm still the same me. Tapi saya tak boring pun. My life is beautiful. Alhamdulillah)

  4. p/s: banyak nak di update? Mana nak start dulu yea??