I’m not saying being me is good..

I’m not saying living in my life is splendid..

But, what I’m gonna say is just have a taste a little bit of my life and tell me how it really is..

Hear my story..

Spill if you want and swallow if you like..

Shaff-story..is a tale..a taste of me~shaff

TALE


chapter 17: Announcement.Blog updated.

Dear everyone,
I've updated this blog and the tale's chapter will be discontinued.
Every post will be posted at the home page only for readers convenience.

thank you, and happy reading everyone.

xoxo,
-shaff-



chapter 16: Tell me your wish..



Have you ever wish for anything??? Sure do…because that’s what human made of...Desire.
We always hope for one thing, wish for one thing and want everything…
We always forget what we had and want to possess what we want.
Well, it’s never a crime to make a wish right??
Even if it’s just a hope that I can dream of then let’s make a list to what I wish for...

Things I wish for:
  1.  Perform hajj with my family.
  2.   Shopping in a mall during closed hour.
  3.    Backpacking to anywhere.
  4.     Confess to a person I had my crushed on.
  5.      Have my own design line.
  6.     Try new sports e.g. wall climbing, paintball, etc.
  7.       Publish my poems.
  8.      Have a part time job with my friends.
  9.       Write a novel.
  10.    Learn to play musical instrument.
  11.   Have fun try a wedding dress in a wedding shop with my friends.
  12.   Visit at least one place in the list of 7 wonders of the world.
  13.    Have my own charity foundation.



One day, you will notice that this wish list will become longer…. Blame me not.
I will always wish for something but I won’t care if I get nothing.
Dare to dream and keep living.

(p/s: so…what’s on your wish list???)  








chapter 15: Saya dan FB


Fb yg ingin sy bicarakan disini bukanlah besfren sy mahupun kenalan sy...tp yg menjadi isu adalah apabila semua org mempamerkan reaksi yang tidak terduga tiap kali sy menjawab “sy xder fb” Lihatlah insiden-insiden berikut:

Insiden 1:
Latar-perkenalan kawan-kawan baru.

Kawan 1: korg ada fb kn...add la i..
Kawan 2,3 dan seterusnya: okey!!!
Saya: beb,i xder fb..
Semua kawan: hah!! U xder fb???? Mana ader org xder fb skrg ni...apela u...
Saya: tp i ada twitter..
Kawan-kawan: yela...tp fb pn kna ada....
Saya: okey.(diam)

Insiden 2:
Latar-perjumpaan pertama dengan boss

Boss: for me fb is good to keep in touch and untuk tahu perkembangan semasa..semua ada fb kn?
Candidate 1,2: yess..ada2.
Saya: sy xder...
Boss: u xder fb?
Saya: sy ada twitter je..
Boss: its ok la..tp for me twitter is for celebrity...so u ni celebrity la??
Saya: (ketawa dan diam.)

Insiden 3:
Latar-terserempak dgn client yg cuba mengayat

Client: awak staff baru ke?
Saya: taklah..praktikal
Client: saper nama?
Saya: (menjawab ngn jujur)
Client: okey..nanti saya cari dlm fb.
Saya: okey..(carilah sampai esok pn confirm tak jumpe..sy xder fb!)...thank god!

See! Betapa hidup saya dikaitkan dgn fb dimana saja sy pergi...padahal fb tu bukan kwn saya pn...tp sekarang sy tau knp...sbb walaupun fb bukan seorg kawan tapi dia lah yg akan menghubungkan saya ngn kawan2 saya.jadi,untuk tidak menyebabkan semua org memberi reaksi tidak terduga tu lagi sy dgn ini memilih untuk ber fb...sekarang bolehla sy ckp..yess,i have fb!

(p/s: kredit to my chinggu yg out of the blue tiba2 dia msg “beb,jom buat fb”...sy reply..”okey”...inilah kisahnya untuk pengetahuan semua yg setelah sy ada fb dorg mengcomment sy dgn reaksi tidak terduga lagi..’eh,dh ada fb!’)




chapter 14: Back to school


Setelah sekian lama bercuti akhirnya kenalah balik ke sekolah...mcm biasalah setelah settle packing barang yg berlori byknya tp sepertinya mcm ada yg masih tertinggal.packing brg pulak style org pindah rumah,kalau boleh angkat skali rumah nie confirm ramai je yg bawak rumah je terus balik asrama.perempuan dan barang-barangnya mmg tak dapat dipisahkan....kalau budak laki bawak luggage satu pun dh cukup.kenapa yea?...yang saya tau...kalau perempuan mesti kna ada..
  • 1.       luggage untuk kasut-kasutnynya...tergamak nak tinggalkan semua kasut2 nie kt rumah?? Memang tak la kan...guna semua kasut2 ni nanti...kasut kelas(sbb nk gi kelas),kasut jalan2(xleh pakai kasut kelas kalau nk gi jalan2),kasut sukan(walaupun harapan la kan nk gi bersukan tp mana tau kot2 nk bersukan..kna prepare),kasut toilet(ofcoz la takkan gna kasut kelas or kasut jalan untuk masuk toilet...),kasut baru(sbb baru beli kalau tinggal kt rumah saper yg nk pakai..) jadi pendek kata semua lah kna bawak...
  • 2.       luggage untuk baju-bajunya...ni paling penting.kalau tertinggal ni mmg sanggup je u-turn balik ke rumah...baju kelas(ini mmg priority sbb apa gunanya kelas kalu xder baju..),baju jalan(sbb baju jalan dengan baju kelas lain genrenya...),tudung dan shawl dan segala jenis selendang(sbb wanita muslim kna la berhijab),baju nk pakai kt bilik(sbb takkan nk pakai baju kelas or baju jalan kt bilik pulak.xbest la..)jadi pendek kata perlu dikosongkan je terus almari baju kt rumah...
  • 3.       luggage untuk perkakas elektriknya...ini pn penting gak ni sbb kalu takde terpaksa la hari2 gi mengetuk bilik jiran sebelah sbb nk pinjam brg2 elektrik( kita xboleh ketuk bilik org slalu...nuisance nanti..)perkakas elektrik termasuk lah...laptop(nyawa ni...tak leh hidup tanpanya),charger phone and laptop(of coz...),kettle(sbb kna minum air masak..air water cooler menyebabkan sakit tekak),iron(semua baju jenis yg kna iron...terpaksalah..) see! Xder la byk pun...
  • 4.       luggage untuk buku-bukunya...ini lagi la penting,kata back to school...buku sekolah(as usual..),novels(sbb nk kna ada bedtime story),buku main(termasuklah sudoku,searchword puzzle,dll untuk menajamkan otak),buku nota(untuk kegunaan time kelas),magazines(perlu jugak hiburan) berkotak-kotak la jugak akhirnya...
  • 5.       luggage untuk barang-barang lainnya...ini termasuklah make up(sbb perempuan..),teddy bear(peneman tidur...),langsir(langsir yg asrama provide tak cukup..),stok-stok makanan(makan itu perlu..),toiletries(its important to be hygenic..),bantal,comforter,bedsheet(nak tidur yg lena kna ada semua ni..) carpet(sbb asrama xsediakan carpet just lantai simen je..mana bleh..)akhirnya kna la tambah satu lagi beg besar nk muatkan semua ni...
bila melihat semua himpunan barang2 ni mmglah berimpian..’kalaulah bleh angkat je rumah ni..’ bila tengok balik mmg la xpaham...niat untuk cut down brg2 menjadi small2 portion mmg la sentiasa ada tapi bila telek2 balik nk cut down ape?? Semua penting ni...akhirnya pasrah je la dgn brg2 yg ada ni....dh mmg semua penting...kan? kan? (tolongla ada yg setuju ngn saya..)

(p/s: hopefully this semester will be more glorious to me and everyone...dearest chinggu,lets have fun!!!)




chapter 13: Nature Instinct 


Baby bila lapar dia akan menangis...saper yang ajar?...nature instinct

Kanak-kanak bila xdpt apa yang dorg nak dia akan menghentak-hentak kaki dan berguling-guling....saper yang ajar?...nature instinct

Bila dah besar macam mana tau kna suka kt opposite gender?...nature instinct
Pendek kata apa yg sy nk story kt cni adalah pasal baby monkey yg diadopt oleh daddy ku....(eh...pe kaitan ngn nature instinct??...apakah...)

Pada suatu hari yg tenang tiba2 beliau bawak balik baby monkey yang diclaim bhw baby tersebut telah ditinggalkan oleh ibunya di dpn ofis dia...(apakah...binatang pun buang bayi ker....)
dibelinya botol susu dan disuruhnya saya jahit baju...diberi makan fresh fruit,roti gardenia ngn cream crakers..(first class punye treatment..)

baby monkey tu suka menggaru-garu(ala...garu style monkey la...) pastu daddy  kata: “jangan la garu gitu nanti nmpak sgt kita tu kera”.....and i was like...apakah....bukankah ia seekor kera!!...

bila mommy pulak balik umah tgk si baby monkey tgh makan n kumpul makanan yang dimakan dipipi(ala...yang mcm monyet slalu buat tu..style dorg la tu..)....mommy pulak kata: “kecik-kecik pun dh jadi kera?....”  once again i was like....apakah....bukankah ia memang seekor kera!!...

atau adakah secara nature instictnya people try to admit yg theory charles darwin tu betul??....atau yang cuba dibuktikan oleh si baby monkey tersebut adalah walaupun ia baby nature instinctnya mengatakan bahawa ia adalah monkey?? 

And secara instinctnya....saya rasa ia sungguh kelakar(hahahaha)(^^,)

(p/s: silalah bermurah hati dgn mengadopt animal such as little kitty yg terbuang sbb populasi kucing liar yg need home sgtlah byk...lets lend hand at petfinder.kitty is cute ape...i have two of them!~wink~)

this is the adopted baby monkey~
                                                       




chapter 12: my acknowledgment...as been promised. 


As been promise....di chapter 7 saya ada menyebut secebis pasal al kesah saya di attachment program. Saya kata...’if i ever survive this, i will write my acknowledgement’...well. here i am...survived in good condition...and here‘s to...

My boss....thanks..sbb let me be a part of the team.sbb supervise all my works(walaupun sy xbuat byk keje pn sbnrnye) sbb sanggup mengadap muka saya hari2(this is obvious sbb meja sy betul2 dpn bilik bos yang bercermin lutsinar) sbb jawab semua soalan saya(walaupun jawapannya sy bleh cari sendiri dlm buku) sbb sign semua surat saya(walaupun semua surat tu surat yang sama tiap kali sbb a careless me dh buat mistake kt previous surat)..sbb tak pernah marah saya(walaupun it’s so obvious saya slalu menghilang dari ofis sblm pkul 5).and banyak sbb lg yg xdpt nk ditafsirkan satu2..

My kakak2 ofis...thanks..sbb melayan saya dgn penuh mesra walaupun saya ni seorg yg akward xkena tempat.sbb ajak saya makan whenever ada makanan(walaupun sy selalu jamah sikit je sbb konon2 malu...apakah..) sbb bg saya keje every time i asked for it(which is not everytime sbb saya selalu buat keje lambat2..nak kill time punye pasal) sbb tolong saya kill my time(trust me i really appreciate it.nak tunggu pkul 5 hari2 is a big time hardship..)sbb xpernah merungut setiap kali sy mintak bantuan nak mengoperate mesin photostat(huuu..loser me..sy terasa intimidate sbb mesin photostate tu besar sgt) sbb xmarah walaupun saya dh tersalah cop kertas2 yg diberi(sbb byk sgt kna cop sy dh terkompius seketika) sbb treat saya mcm member lama bila saya pergi melawat ofis setelah tamat program.sbb jemput saya datang lagi anytime(maksudnya saya masih lagi diterima disitu..)

My kawan baru....thanks...sbb korang hadir tepat pada masanya(sblm saya mati kebosanan sorg2 kt situ) sbb jadi rapat dgn saya in one day(sgt terharu...sbb dgn korg saya tak rasa akward) sbb dengar all my mumblings about how i tak puas hati sbb korg habis dulu daripada sy walaupun saya yg datang dulu di program ini.sbb bli newspaper hari2(saya dpt bace paper free) sbb teman sy shopping time ofis hour(mana lagi nk jumpa kawan yg bleh ponteng bersama2..hehe) sbb ajak saya breakfast and lunch hari2. Sbb sudi tumpangkan kereta untuk saya(walaupun pada hakikatnya saya bawak kete sendiri...and my lame excuses would be everything about parking!) sbb still keep in touch with me until today(via apa sekalipun and excuse me for being sooo lame for not having a FB) sbb kenalkan sy pd byk tempat baru(walau pada hakikatnya saya dh menetap disini dgn lamanya) sbb memeriahkan tempat lepak saya(which is the library yang pengunjung tetapnya adalah saya je selama ni) sbb share kisah korang and bergelak ketawa bersama saya.

My chinggu...thanks..sbb walaupun kita xbersama2 sepanjang attachment ni tapi  korg sanggup reply all my sms yg semakin kerap saya kirimkan sepanjang 3 bulan ni(walaupun saya tau ianya mahal sbb sy sorg je yg guna celcom) sbb buat saya rasa i’m not alone(walaupun physicallynya i’m all alone here) sbb keep me up-dated wif all your stories.sbb always menjadi pendengar yang setia(or in this context pembaca yang setia to all my sms and pengreply yg setia to it too) 

Saya sangat2 menghargainya. A bunch of hugs and kisses from me to all of you! XOXO

(p/s; maaf kerana tatabahasa yang digunakan sgtlah poor in condition...miskinkah?? tak...i mean..sgt teruk..as long as sampai maksudnya,ok la tu..hehe^^,)






chapter 11: survival tips...untuk teruskan hidup=)


Aritu, i met this one guy...yang sgt concern about the-so-called ‘budak-budak zaman sekarang’ yang bagi dia sgt susah nak survive especially the girls...i tell you, dia dh berjaya and ada masa depan yg cerah so i think it’s just normal for him to concern about others pulak.kan?...mendengar cerita dia saya berjaya mengextract beberapa perkara yang saya rasa boleh menjadi  a very good survival tips... Let check this out...

1.    1.   Hidup jangan terlalu mengikut arus baru boleh survive....dia kata kita hidup ni jgn ikut flow sangat,kadang2 kna menentang sikit2 baru bleh hidup...tapi bukan la bermaksud nk kna jd rebellious plak...just jangan jadi lalang sangat. Dia kata even ikan di sungai hidup dengan melawan arus sbb tu bleh survive,sbb kalau ikan2 tu ikut arus diorg akan terus hanyut...samalah macam kita...jangan hanyut dibawa arus.

2.    2.   For girls...dia kata jangan kawen awal sangat..no offence to sesiapa yang dh kawen sbb for me ini hanyalah his own personal opinion...dia kata lagi, girls, kejar dulu cita2 korang baru settle down. Even if korang tak plan nak ada full time career pun tapi make sure you have something to hold on. Sbb if anything happen one day, korang boleh jamin masa depan korang sendiri...and anak2 (kalau ada la...) kalau lelaki sendiri yang personally bagi nasihat ni kat korang tidakkah korang rasa ia perlu dipertimbangkan?

3.      3. For girls lagi...better cari calon suami yang kerja government...skali lagi saya nk highlight,no offence to those yang kawen ngan non-government workers. Honestly saya ckp, dis guy yg bagi nasihat ni is giving his opinion sincerely sbbnya, he is himself is not a government workers and he is married. Dia kata semua ni just untuk bagi jaminan masa depan untuk korang. Dgn berkawen ngan pekerja kerajaan, korg dh bleh confirmkan yg office hour diorang is 8 to 5 je ari2 and hols on weekend. Dgn ini korang boleh mengelakkan perkara2 seperti husband korg balik umah jauh2 malam ngn alasan ada meeting tapi sebenarnya tidak...and jaminan kewangan jugak untuk hari tua anda...

4.      4. Next tip is..kemana saja korang pergi,please berbaik2 ngn semua org..bukanla nk suruh pegi tegur setiap org yg korang jumpa (xnak la terjadi perkara2 seperti org cop korang budak annoying plak kan...) just smile moderately and talk moderately...kalau mmg xder mood sgt nk tegur pn senyum pn dh cukup...your smile brighten the day tau! and jangan ada double standard atau judge a person by first look sbb its always way too wrong. Hari ni maybe org tu jahat di mata korang tapi mana tau satu hari nanti korang in trouble and the only person yang dtg tolong is the one yang korang dh cop jahat tu...kita tak tau masa depan so let play safe...berbaik2lah ngn semua org so dat org lain pn akan berbaik2 ngn korg=)

Semua yang dinyatakan di atas adalah sedutan dari rentetan kisah saya bertemu ngn someone yang care enough to give advice...it’s good to know that someone’s care. People can give advises but take it or leave it is up to us,the one that lead our own life.

(p/s: I lead my life and you lead yours...but at the end of the day we both hope for one thing...happiness...wishing you all a happy ending!) 



chapter 10: 360 degree changed

      Pernah tak korg stalk kawan2 lama kt fb? bukanla dgn niat nk jd stalker..just nk tau perkembangan dunia gitu...(acece..cover line seorg stalker)..itu xpenting. yang penting..pernahkah?? kalau tak pernah tu mungkin perlu dipernah-pernahkan...
      nak tau pe yg korg bleh dpt ngan buat begitu?..meh sini nk story...
1. yg paling penting korg bleh ingat balik muka2 kawan2 korg yg the last time korg jumpa is waktu last day darjah enam..(sekolah rendah la tu maksudnya...). korg akan perasan betapa telah membesarnya semua org...yg cun jd makin cun,yg xcun pun jd cun and yg sewaktu dgnnya lah...silap2 boleh tak kenal tu...dimamah usia gitu...

2. then korg bleh tgk betapa jauhnye korg ketinggalan dari hidup diaorg...takder satu pun gambar korg dlm picture album diorg..sumenya dipenuhi ngn gambar2 insan2 yg korg sendiri pn tak kenal...takder sebaris pn nama korg yg disebut kt wall2 diorg..and takder satu pn msg2 kt wall tu ditujukan untuk korg...

3.  time ni la korg nk tgk diorg end up ngn saper sbnrnye...yang berkapel tu dh pastilah...n paling best..yg dh kawen pn ramai...time ni la baru muncul comment2 ayat standard yg berbunyi...'amboi,kawen tak jemput pun..'  korg pastikah korg perlu dijemput sbnrnya??? mcm yg telah diberitahu td..hidup korg dh jauh ketinggalan dari diorg.

4.  korg jugak bleh kira saper budak2 kelas dulu yg berjaya menjadi manusia sejati...maksudnya cerah masa depan la...sbb jgn terkejut kalau dulu diorg masuk kategori budak pandai tp skrg dh termasuk dlm kategori kabur masa depan...serious tak terjangka!

5.  yg paling best untuk diupdate adalah...insan2 yg korg pernah crush time2 skolah dlu....percayalah bila korg tgk balik..korg akan kata begini ,"gila apa aku suka kt dia dulu..biar benar..buruk kot.." well, biasalah bila dh besar, taste pun dh jd laen...yg dulu korg puji melambung cute giler,kini semuanya tinggal kenangan...

setelah puas korg belek...korg akan sedar betapa hidup ni dh berubah 360 degree..sama ada korg perasan atau tak..and most of the time mmg korg tak kan perasan pn perubahan tu...sama jugak bila org laen tgk hidup korg sekarang diorg pn akan cakap hidup korg dh laen...kita jadi jealous bila tgk hidup org laen sbb kita akan rasa kita tak achieve apa2 pn lg..the truth is, sejealous mana korg rasa pada org laen org laen pun rasa jealous bila tgk hidup korg...selagi kita tak rasa apa yang org laen rasa kita takkan pernah puas...betulkan? padahal kita terlupa langsung untuk bersyukur dgn apa yg dh kita ada....sampai bila nk kejar hidup org laen...kan kita ada hidup sendiri...be fair to it!

 

chapter 9: carnations for mother's day!

          hari ni mother's day!! yeap..i know..confession, sebenarnya.....baru tau td yg hari ni mother's day sbb time driving td terbukak radio and terdengar org wish happy mother's day...huuu..forgive me a million time for my ignorance...bukanla tak tau langsung,saya tau la mother's day tu sometimes in this month tp tak tau specifically the date...kebetulan hari ni keluar sbb ikut my brother beli deco untuk aquarium dia...pastu bila dh dengar yg today is mother's day kitaorg pn buat la last minute plan nk surprise my mom for mother's day..
          first, nk cari present...mula2 masuk kedai home deco...dh pusing satu kedai still tak tau nk beli apa..then nampak handmade cotton apron..cute!..pastu tanya diri sendiri, 'ok ke beli apron as present?'....no answer for that..angkat letak angkat letak last-last keluar kedai dengan tangan kosong..
          pastu decide nk beli bunga...cari kedai bunga and nampak la byk bunga...pastu blank!...bunga apa yg sesuai?...makcik jaga bunga pn tanya...'nak bunga apa dik?'...and i was like...'hehe..saya pn tak tau makcik...'..pastu dia tanya lagi.'untuk siapa?'...saya jawab..'untuk mak..'...then makcik tu bg jawapan...'owh..kalau untuk ibu,bagi la bunga ni...'..sy tanya..'emm,mcm mana kira ni makcik?'..dia jawab...'adik bgtau je makcik adik nk berapa kuntum nnti makcik bgtau harga..'...pastu lagi skali sy blank!...slalu org bg bunga berapa kuntum ek...sy tanya la my brother yg dr td menyepi, 'nk bagi brapa ni?'..then dia jawab...'umur mak berapa?'...saya terus la nk termengamuk...'weyh,ini bukan untuk birthday la!..bunga mahal tau tak..'..punya la xmembantu.bila dh lama sgt menyepi makcik tu pun bgla clue..dia kata 3 kuntum rm18,5 kuntum rm30..adik nk berapa?..bila dengar gitu terus sy decide..'ok makcik,3 kuntum'...(sebenarnya kalau makcik tu tak bg clue sy dh nk tercakap 10 kuntum dh td...mau muflis.duit dlm purse pn ada cukup2 je...maklumla,last minute punye plan.) pastu ingatkan dh settle kt situ...tiba-tiba makcik tu ckp 'ok,adik masuk dlm cakap kt akak kt dalam adik nk bunga 3 kuntum.cakap kata adik dh bgtau makcik bunga apa nak'...and i was like...'pulak dah'...
          Dengan suci hati saya pn masuk dlm kedai..akak kt counter tu pn tanya...'nak apa dik?'..dgn sempoinya sy jawab..'bunga 3 kuntum kak'...akak tu pn pandang mcm xpaham...dia tanya lg..'bunga apa tu dik?'..and...skali lagi saya blank!...wait a minute,td makcik tu tak cakap pulak ape nama bunga tu...ape lagi sy pn bagi jawapan selamat..'emm,bunga saya dh cakap kt makcik kat luar td..'...tetiba, akak tu mcm nk keluar aura naga...'adik kna bgtau kt akak nk bunga apa bukan kt makcik luar tu..akak yg nk wrap.oklah, bunga untuk apa? ibu?...sy terus..'aah..yea...untuk ibu'.dia jawab..'kalau untuk ibu,bagi carnations..'..(owh..)....'special ke?'..dia tanya lg.sy pn...'eh,apa yg special?' akak tu pn explain..'special maksudnya nk buat bouquet'...(owh.).'nk warna apa?'....sy pandang dia dgn blur..mcm paham dia pn explain..'soft pink ke..dark pink ke...'...sy pn..(owh.).'pink la kak..xkisah la pink apa pn asal pink'....
          An hour lepas tu..saya pergi balik kedai bunga tu nk pick up my bouquet...it turn out...cute...hehe.different from what i imagine earlier..sy imagine 3 kuntum bunga yg diikat je..rupanya bila dh jadi bouquet besar pulak..tak sangka!..nasib baik tak beli 10 tadi..kalau tak mesti lagi besar kan..haha.
          Bila pikir balik...rupanya ada benda yg saya tak tau langsung nk buat..which is..beli bunga.i dont even know the flower's name.nak pilih ape yg sesuai pn masalah jugak nak wrap macam mana pn xtau..how could me..yg saya tau rose je..(cakap je la mmg tak penah beli bunga..apatah lagi nk menerima bunga..sob.sob)..nak jadi real women at least kna tau pasal bunga...today i know that carnations is the best choice for mother's day.sy decide nk wat research pasal bunga la pas ni..mcm menarik pulak..bila dh encounter difficulties baru nak belajar...this is life.this is me...tapi ape2 pn..at the end of the difficulties sy dpt jugak surprisekan my mom dgn bouquet tu..worth it!..and sweet..

(p/s: i wish i had more money...to buy a bigger bouquet than this.)








chapter 8 : who says 


This is sweet....for me! so i'm sharing with you what i think is sweet..

(p/s: i'm no beauty queen.i'm just beautiful me!...hehe)


chapter 7: The day! 
      Today is the day!...ingat x sy bgtau earlier yg my hols just a week...yesterday, that 1 week ended..and today is the day i start my attachment program as required by the university...well it's like the praktikal thingy...semalam all night sy xdpt my beauty sleep sebab worry plus nervous punye pasal...maunye tak, this is my first time working..mmg xpernah ada experience keje before this..i worried about everything, the boss, the office mate, the work even the outfit...
         when i first enter into the building, i'm kindda lost actually..i'm all alone. Time tu i wish sgt dpt attach skali ngn chinggu tersayang tp ape boleh buat sepertinya semua orang membawa haluan masing2...and here i am..alone...and lost.
         sebolehnye saya senyum sampai ke telinga and tanye je semua org yg saya jumpa along the way..sbb tak kenal sesaper punye pasal..at last saya dpt meet my boss that told me to meet some other staff that told me to go to some other places that ended me at the court prosiding...well..first of all i'm super not ready to join the prosiding because my attire is super not the court attire...sweet! i'm the pink among the black and white profesional law abiding staff...haila! For the whole time i felt like everyone staring at me..or it is just me who is too sensitif?...
         After it ended, i spend my whole evening at my desk...(oh yeah! i get my own cubicle though..) i help my office mate with their work..need some stamping and sealing...and the rest....is history.hehe
         what i learned is that we must be the chameleon...in a good way..we ourself must take the initiative to get to know others...we enter  into their world so its our job to get to know them right? mula2 mmg la akward but try to break that wall once. then you will found out that it's not that hard.really!...sbb according to my nature,i 'm so not the one who make friend first.sbb saya mmg sesgt tak tau mcm mana nk start the conversation tapi today sy dpt break that wall...walaupun ada la sikit lg perasaan akwardnye tp it's a one step i take to go out from my comfort zone. and it's feel great.
        hari ni baru first day and i have another 3 month to go...if ever i survive, i will wrote my acknowledgment here..promise.hehe

(p/s: to my beloved chinggu, hope you all have a great moment for the next 3 month..miss ya.)
   


Chapter 6: leisure before pressure.. 
At last, exam pun tamat.....now,i'm proudly announce that i'm in leisure mode!....leisure...leisure...lalala....sepanjang exam week i make a to-do-list untuk memanfaatkan cuti yang datang sekali sekala ni...and on top of the list would be movie marathon..pastu nak update gossips...then nak download whats new on music bank...emm,lagi..nak masuk zone craft yg dh lama menyepi..which means i have something new in my mind that need some sewing and designing..i'm planning on making my new craft line though..if lucky enough maybe i can sell it too...( need pocket money!)..and don't forget my paper clay yang masih banyak tersimpan rapi dalam bekasnye..saya kna start balik my paper clay project...handmade button..and novel..saya dapat new storyline maybe nk start mangarang novel pulak after dis...and..banyak lagi....this is super fun!...tapi bile ingat balik...STOP!..jap2..forgot something....my attachment program start on 18 Apr so maksudnya...i only have one week hols!  and i still have many things undone..sweet...baru nak leisure dh terfikir benda2 yang preisure pulak....double sweet...
   know what, at this rate, no matter how sweet my life is(sarcastic overload)..leisure is leisure..saya dh penat twisted my brain for exam hari tu now nak rest...when i said rest means i rest..textbooks and notes..sorry i have to abandon you for a while..for now...shaff is in leisure mode..and pressure...i deal with you later!


(p/s: to everyone, please don't pressure yourself too much. take time to play. coz stress can really damage your skin...i'm expert in this area..trust me!)


        





Chapter 5: recycle time
                My guilty pleasure would be buying a bunch of magazine every month and had a major time reading it from cover to cover..bliss~..but after that cepat je all the mags jd berbukit dan menggunung and of coz throwing it out is super membazir..(mana tau esok-esok nak bace lg..) tapi trust me, sume tu tipu! Next month dh keluar new mags and the same things happen. At the end of the day maner nk tgk balik dh yg previous nyer issues. Dh out of date…
                Tapi hari nie sy dpt resolutions baru…with strong heart I’m gonna throw everything out! Betul ni tak tipu punye…tapi before that mesti la ada benda menarik kan…so sy pn study balik la all the pages and buat some paper cut. Sy cut everything inspirational and everything cute. Last-last dapat la a stack of paper cut. Macam a compilation of some goods,cute and dreamy stuff. Memang terasa worth it lah..xder la terasa membazir sgt nk buang mcm tu je. At least dgn recycle all the old mags sy dpt something from my guilty pleasure.
                Moral of the story..recyling is never bad. Korang ingat fashions mags takder faedah ke…bila compile balik every little goods stuff from all the issues korang bleh dpt a compilation of beuty,fashions and good articles of all time in one go!..worth it. And one more thing, the left over, pleez….antar kat recycle centre or buang dlm recycle bin and recycle it…ozon dah semakin menipis ni…please do not open burning.

(p/s: nasihat dari saya yang pencinta alam…)


Chapter 4: stress alert!
                Masuk musim exam...the only term yang paling menyemakkan otak is STRESS! I hate exam.well, ade ke yg exam tu favourite subject dia..kalau ada sy nak datang menuntut boleh? Macam mane ni...byk lagi tak abis cover and takder gap pulak for every paper.ini tahap membunuh ni..nak rebus minum air buku pun tak sempat ni...kenape la saya amik course yg fulltime reading ni. Huruf-huruf sume masuk mata kanan keluar mata kiri dah ni..well, dh third year pn..buat per la nk mempersoalkan naper amik course ni patut persoalakn tyme isi borang UPU lagi...kalau tau macam ni sy dh lama apply for art ke..designing ke...itu baru my passion..walupun pada hakikatnya reading is my passion tapi kena la tgk genre reading ape..genre yg sy tgh read skrg is super heavy~sigh~...antara hidup dan mati, antara betul atau salah...tak ke heavy namanya tu..dari awal lagi sy dh cakap, hidup ni tak mudah tapi mesti ada cara untuk memudahkannya kan?..this is my way...
                First, know your interest, like me right now i adore Kpop. So use that in applying your life. Make reading your lecture notes as reading your script for new drama. Make memorizing your notes as memorizing your new comeback music lyrics and make it that your exam day as your comeback stage  for new album..fully prepared and of coz no mistake in stage!
                Secondly, korang tau kan macam maner nature all the kpop artist. They have to become trainee under any management label for years before debute. So make it your life in college or university or even school  as the management label and you are the trainee under them. So the day of your graduation is the the of your debute..voila!   life is fun kan?.. i’ll be waiting for everyone to debute...me? soon...

CHAPTER 3: POEM IN PROGRESS..

Dh berapa lama sign up jd blogger tp still takder entri poem..huhu.sorrylah..bukan aper, mcm yang disebutkan dlm history Miss Shaff selama ni tulis poem kat atas kertas guna pen. Bila dah ada lappy,baru maju sikit dh pandai nk taip-taip. Tapi poem2 yang terdahulu still dalam bentuk tulisan pen di atas kertas..saya busy la tak sempat nak taip balik semua..kalau ada masa nak taip pun semua masa tu dihabiskan untuk taip assignment yang menggunung everest..(pandainya Cik Shaff bagi excuse..nak update blog ader pulak masa..hehe) My besties ada offer nak tolong taipkan tapi takpelah..tak nak la susahkan org lain..dia pun ada byk assignment yg lagi penting nk kena taip..so, nanti lah yea..saya buat step by step. Yang pasti poem2 tu akan berada ditempatnya soon. Lagipun mmg itu pun tujuannya saya buat blog ni..nk buat shelter untuk all my poems..so,...yeah...soon (‘ ‘,)

CHAPTER 2: A WEDDING TALE

Cuti sekolah dh start!(baca dgn happy tone)...tp bg Miss Shaff yg dh abes sekolah ni mmg la xmmberi ape2 makna. Kna tggu semester break la baru ada makna.hehe. And bila dh cuti sekolah the most obvious thing is wedding card yg tetiba byk pulak meminta untuk dibacakan..yg paling terasa kalau wedding kawan2 terdekat..saya pn akan ckp: “ korang..naper kawen cepat sangat..” . Then org yg nk kawen tu pun akan jwb: “nak buat mcm mane, jodoh dh sampai..” (jawapan paling standard diabad ini..). well mmg betul ape.selagi jodoh tak sampai mcm mane nk kawen.maknanya mmg jodoh dh sampai la tu..itu yg diorg semua kawen tu...bg insan-insan yg mcm Miss Shaff ni, yg jodohnya belum lg sampai ni...tak taulah ape perasaannya..nk mintak doa dipercepatkan jodoh pn mcm takut sbb i know myself well and sangatlah tak readynya untuk bab2 mcm ni..(tapi if one day my Encik Prince Charming yang dtg propose, then at that time ready tak ready pun for sure i say ‘ i do’ ..haha)..Ada dis one night me and my besties tolong buatkan manicure for this one friend for her preparation to get married. And we had a nice chat wif her about the-so-called-prince-charming-in-everyone’s-heart..dia cakap for anyone yang still not taken tu, their heart is still locked. And the guy with the right key still not here to unlocked it. One day, that right guy will come and easily unlocked your heart. Kalau sebelum ni pernah ada yang mencuba tapi tak turn out happy ending that’s because all those previous guy does not have the right key to your heart. Bile dengar dia cakap mcm tu rasa sweet sgt. Biarla datang a bunch of keys pun tapi kalau satu pun takder yang fit nothing will happen. Terasa la how’s that day will be the greatest day ever if it come kan.. So don’t worry gurls..your time will come..just stay decent and wait for your prince charming to come with the right key.

(p/s: to my Encik Prince Charming, i’ll be waiting!..kekeke). <3.



CHAPTER 1: FIRST TASTE

Believe me, bukan senang nk persuade seorg Shaff ntk share story ngn org lain..this hopeless and helpless girl is so secretive in many ways.The thing is i started to write poem since sekolah and all that because of the secretive habit yang xboleh diubah in one day.susah sgt nk bukak mulut nk share probs..at last share ngan paper and pen je la.problems sume dh dikarang jd poem..disebabkan start dr sekolah sampai sekarang for sure la dah berkajang poem yg terhasil..and the one and only person yg pernah bace all the poem is my cousin.she's the best cousin ever! every time bace dia mesti suh publish it anywhere..tp sampai skrg xpenah ada confident nk try.until i met this girl yg now dh diiktiraf sbg my bestfriend-BFF, persuade me ntk buat blog as she know i love to write..and this bff really can influence me in many ways.and at last...tada...i have my own blog.thanks to her! dia yg byk berbakti mengedit nk buat shaff-story punye header..awesome kn..dia gk yg suh post all my poem kt blog ni.well to think about it, it's not a bad idea pun kn..drpd tersimpan rapi je all the poem why not post it.bile dh ada blog ni cm bez lak nk taip byk2.at last shaff is not that secretive anymore..now i know,kadang2 ada benda yg kita kena share ngn org lain.sbb problem kalau keep it bottled lama2 boleh jadi virus that will kill you from the inside..if terasa mcm nk stay lama lg atas bumi ni try la cari anyone yg bleh jd pendengar yang setia.i already found one.my chinggu! i'am always pendengar yg setia to them and they also become mine...and i have my siblings to share with.not too bad kan...selama ni pn diaorg ada je beside me but i choose not to tell them sbb rase cm org lain xbleh nk faham diri kita and takut kna judge tp sebenarnya xder la mcm tu pun..bila dh release sume old problem bru ringan sket hati dan perasaan ni..and pas ni bleh la start fresh.pas ni byk lg problem lain yg nk kna input. kalau yg dulu2 pn xsettle lg bleh server down tau.. so better la kosongkan sume botol2 masalah tu so that ada tempat nk isi yg baru.bukan la nk suh cari masalah.it's jz that to have a probs in life is normal.happen all the time.life is ain't easy.. trust me!...












 








   

4 comments:

  1. capik! i've read all these! super-fantastic!OMG,u are soooooo GOOD! daebak!haha. my comment is: girl,u are way tooooo fantastic.ur words,all la..i'm so proud of my big sista.yeayy! sy akan jadi pmbaca yg setia.dont worry,write ur heart,okey? Love u so MUCH!XOXO!

    (nk gak buat P/S,haha: bila nk post pic kite sume?ahaha.i'm waiting.hehe)^^

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  2. thanx sooOO much beb! thanx for drop by and read it..appreciate it...
    (p/s: mmg plan nak post gambar chinggu tersayang tapi kna mintak permission dulu...takut nnti ter infringe right korg lak...haha)

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  3. chicky...kak thah pun bc gak hehe...

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