Friday, October 12, 2012
fate and dream
5 years ago I still wearing my school uniform, attend school diligently and struggle for SPM…ok, honestly not that struggle or else I would be on the front page of newspaper already holding my straight A's transcript…still I've past all that.
At this minute I'm already in university and in my final year . Reading laws….time flies and I never realize it. Never had a slightest idea that this would be my fate and fated to be. Never in my list to take law as my subject and nothing in me that I can perceive as a future advocates and solicitor. I never thought I could do it but as I realize today I'm already half way through. Keep surviving a little more and I would be holding my double degree in civil and syariah law….who can predict that ?
The me that I see several years ago is just a little me with a dream to be a fashion designer and have my own boutique. That's the thing I always dream for since a little girl. Life lead me to a different path. I'm no way heading to anything called fashion and boutique….who can predict that?
Reading laws for all this years never stop me from building some hope else where. I still have my dream of becoming fashion's designer within me somewhere in my heart. I still doing some fashion sketches in my free time and I'm still sewing some materials here and there. Although I know this lead me to nothing but I did not expect for something. I already accept everything my life had gave to me.
Until one phone call change everything….a call that stated that I've been given the opportunity to do fashion designing course…with the condition I finish up my law degree first…the call that gave me new hope and the call that make me dare to dream again….who can predict that?
Some cheer for me and some say its a waste to abandon my law degree and some think I would waste all my time starting to study all over again but just so you know no one can put me down anymore. All this days I've done what I need to do but today its time for me to do what I want to do. Not a scroll that says degree and have my name on it that I'm looking for but a real experience and skills I'll get along the way that I've dream of.
World may need a person's formal qualifications but I only need my dream and I'll work with nothing but happiness.
A year later..
What had been wrote up there is what's on my though that time..then now I'm updating the though seriously. That day,Yes I'm happy to get the opportunity to do fashion designing. But today, I' don't know if I'am that happy anymore. Since the day I got the good news I search all day long about the courses and the thing is…it is way too expensive! And until today I still studying and living on my parents cost. And not a single cent I pay them back. If I were to enroll again in fashion school it will take them to spend a whole lot fortune all over again on me. I seriously don't want that. I'am now in my final sem of law degree. Insyaallah I will grad soon. And my though is, I want to pay them back. My only dream now is to grad and get a proper job, to make my parents proud and to pay all the love they gave to me until today. I'm happy as I am today. Yes, fashion designing is my dream but not all dream can come true and I believe Allah have better plan for me in this path. Just pray for the best!
p/s: Allah tahu apa yang terbaik untuk kita!