JANJI ALLAH

Allah dah janji. Doa-doa orang yang teraniaya itu makbul. Maka jika kau rasa kau teraniaya, berdoalah. Mudah-mudahan Allah setuju.

Tetapi atas dasar apa doa itu? Doa untuk membalas dendamkah? Doa untuk melihat keruntuhan diakah? Doa semoga dia sengsarakah?

Tidak. Bagi aku, sebaik-baik doa adalah ‘aku telah memaafkan kesalahan kau keatasku dan segala perbuatan kau keatasku dan semoga Allah juga  mengampunkan dosa-dosa yang telah kau lakukan keatasNya’.

Kerana apa? Kerana bagi aku Allah lebih tau apa yang terbaik untuk setiap hamba-hambanya. Allah lebih arif pembalasan apakah yang paling setimpal buat dia. Mungkin hati ini meronta untuk membalas dendam. Mungkin mulut ini paling senang untuk ucapkan ‘aku tak akan maafkan dia’. Tapi sampai bila?

Allah dah kata, kalau kau berbuat silap sesama manusia maka minta maaflah kepada manusia itu sendiri. Jika sehingga ke mati kau belum meminta maaf maka carilah dia untuk meminta maaf di akhirat kelak. Tapi, hendakkah kita menangguhkan perjalanan kita di akhirat kelak semata-mata kerana masih ada insan-insan yang tengah berusaha merangkak mencari kemaafan kita? Dia mungkin lambat ke tempat perhitungan kerana kesalahan dia tapi kau kena ingat, kau juga mungkin lambat kerana harus menantikannya. Berbaloikah?

Bagi aku, tidak. Kerana apa? Kerana biar sahaja Allah yang menghitung kesalahan dia. Kita bukan maksum. Kita hanya hamba Allah yang biasa. Maka sebaiknya biarlah dia bersuka ria meraikan kemenangannya di dunia ini selagi boleh. Kerana di akhirat kelak akan ada satu lagi perhitungan buat dia. Di situ, yang benar pasti benar dan yang salah pasti salah. Itu ketetapan Allah.

Sehingga hari itu datang. Maafkanlah dia dan bergembiralah. Allah tahu semua yang benar dan Allah tak akan pernah membiarkan yang salah itu berlalu pergi.

P/s: Janji Allah itu pasti. Yakin dan fahamkan. 

cuma seorang hamba Allah,

-Shaff-

Layakkah kita?

Manusia mengeluh bila ditimpa kesusahaan tapi terlupa untuk bersyukur atas seribu kebaikan.

Sedar tak kita bahawa Allah tak tarik satu pun nikmat daripada kita, tapi tak pernah pula kita bersyukur. Sebab apa? Sebab selagi kita tak nampak ada benda hilang kita lupa benda itu hanya pinjaman.

Allah Cuma tambah satu sahaja lagi beban atas bahu kita itu pun kita dah mengeluh macam esok dah hilang nyawa. Sebab apa? Sebab fitrah manusia, yang beban nak diungkit yang nikmat lupa nak disyukuri.

Jadi, layakkah kita mengeluh lagi?

Hutang manusia dengan manusia sampai kau sanggup berbunuhan. Tapi hutang manusia dengan Allah tiada siapa pula yang peduli.  Sebab apa? Sebab kita lupa azab neraka itu selagi tak timbul depan mata. Kau berhutang dengan manusia kau fikir sampai tak boleh tidur malam. Punyalah gelisah. Takut dengan manusia punya pasal . Tapi bila kau hutang solat dengan Allah, tak solat isya’ pun kau mampu lagi tidur nyenyak sampai ke pagi sampai terhutang pula solat subuh. Bila nak bayar tu? Tak gelisah pun. Maksudnya apa? Tak takut dengan Allah kah?  

Jadi, layakkah kita mengeluh lagi?

Hutang rumah, hutang ptptn, hutang kredit kad semua tu ada dateline yang kau boleh nampak tapi kau takut bukan main lagi. Hutang Allah yang kau tak nampak dateline tu sikit pun kau tak takut. Mana tau tidur malam ni esok Allah dah tarik nyawa. Tak risaukah? Kalau risau kenapa tak peduli?

Dalam Allah bagi ujian tu Dia tak tarik satu pun lagi nikmat daripada kau yang Dia bagi selama ini. selagi kau masih ada atap di atas kepala, kau masih ada kesihatan yang terjaga, kau masih ada juadah di atas meja, bersyukurlah.  Sebab semua itu bukan hak milik mutlak pun. Mana tau esok-esok dah tiada.  Selagi masih ada nyawa dalam jasad kau, bersyukurlah. Itu tandanya masih ada masa untuk kau selesaikannya. Allah tak bagi ujian itu tanpa sebab.  Allah bagi ujian itu untuk tengok sejauh mana kau yakin dengan Dia. Kalau awal lagi kau dah merungut, itu tandanya awal lagi kau dah kandas, awal lagi kau dah tewas. Asyik nak senang saja, buat apa hidup atas dunia? Ingatlah, dunia bukan tempat untuk bersenang-lenang, tapi dunia hanyalah tempat persinggahan untuk kumpul dana supaya kita dapat bersenang-lenang di syurga. Kucing di jalanan pun Allah tak bagi makan free tanpa usaha, inikan pula manusia.

Jadi, layakkah kita mengeluh lagi?

Satu saja soalan aku nak tanya. Andai kata Allah bagi pilihan pada kau untuk Dia tarik balik satu sahaja nikmat dari kau demi menyelesaikan segala masalah yang kau ada, nikmat apakah yang sanggup kau korbankan? Kesihatankah? Anak isterikah? Mak ayahkah? Pekerjaankah? Nyawakah? Kalau satu pun bukan, layakkah kau mengeluh?

Dalam sebegitu banyak nikmat yang Dia bagi siapa kita untuk mempersoalkan sedikit masalah yang Dia suruh kita tempuh.

Hidup. Hadap. Itu sahaja.

P/s: saling ingat-mengingati. sebab itu sahaja yang aku mampu. 

xoxo,

-Shaff-

They may have money but they need friends

Being a lawyer is not all about winning the case but keeping your client happy is one of the basic duty.

I went out for a luncheon with the clients aka the vips that have million of assets in their hands but one thing I saw what they really need is someone to talk to and keep them company. They may have money but what they really need is some friends. A nice friends where they can rely on and not just be there because of the money.

It was a nice luncheon at the Royale Chulan hotel ( the ordinary me wouldn't have lunch there just for fun!) the lunch buffet there cost me my entire week's lunch expenses.

We talked the entire journey to the hotel and talk some more on our journey back. It was so funny how they can change the subject from discussing seriously on the missing flight of MH370 to how it was hard to find a banana nowadays. And then they were talking so seriously on their theory of how the plane can be hijacked and suddenly stop talking and change the subject to how beautiful the bougainvillea is. Then they talk about how they think their private driver had cheated on them on the fuel expenses to suddently discussing what type of tree they should start plant at their new home. They also expressed their worries on the contractors that they hired to repair some defects on their house but try to knock down everything else as well just to get a higher pay.

I feel sorry for them. And I feel mad at how bad this world can be with all those hypocrite that live only for money. why can't people live with more sincerity? why can't we be friends not just for benefit?

when I thanked them for the lunch the thing that they said really touched me..

" Don't thanks me, we should thanked you. Its not about the lunch its about the company"

I smile all the way. Making people happy is whats make me happy. They are nice peoples. and they have millions in their savings but they did not need that. what they really need is a loyal person that can work with them with sincerity. Not a cheating driver, not a contractor who came and renovate their house unnecessarily and charged double on everything and not a friend who came by just to do business. They need real friends and real company. they need family...and a cat!..

You might not know this but sometimes your simple presence is the only thing that someone really need at that time and the only thing you have to do is to be there!

So the next time someone ask for your company, Don't let them down. you might be the only person they have and the only person they hope for.

p/s: Be there for your love one. family, friends or anyone that need you..and be sincere. Nothing beats a piece of nice heart.

Love ya,
XXSHAFFXX

Its New Year!!!!

I can't believe it!!
One more year went by just like that!

For this new year I should have come up with a more mature kind of speech or stuff like that but I guess im too busy to even think about that.Yeah,totally forgot! Duh!

I dont even have my so called new year resolution. I shouldn't have start this new year this unprepared right..~~

I'll get back to that some other day.promise!

For this impromptu wishes..
I just want to wish all of you who were reading this a very happy new year!!!
May you have a blast 2014 and a blast in everything!!! 

P/s; to my dearest girls, happy friendship anniversary!!! Its been 6 years and gladly counting!!! ^.^

Lots of love,

^shaff^

..because its not easy being me..

I love my life. I really do. But just because I love it does not mean that I live it in a smooth sailing life with a fairy tale kind of ending. It was not. Trust me. Those fairy tale kind of ending meant for a fairy only and thats why they called it a fairy tale not a human tale.

In a human tale,
you were not born with a silver spoon in your mouth. You have to work for it. No such thing as free lunch. Nobodies born as a princess except 'the princess'.

In human tale,
you have to think about your future. What you want to do and what you want to be. Its always in need of a series of brainstorming and brainwashing and reverse psychology. No family empayar that you just have to take your turn and run it.

In human tale,
you have to choose between two things thats not obvious which one is better so you always end up making a wrong decision. No true or false scale and of course cannot judge it according to one look (as bad things always been drawn ugly in fairy tales).

In human tale,
you suffers a multi million type of emotions and stumble around over and over again until the end of the day. Not just a basic fairy tales emotions where you were either happy or..happy.

In human tale,
there is no fairy god mother to help you make your bed or finish up your chores or simplify your day. You dont even have a pet who can talk!

In human tale,
you don't marry a prince! (yeah..okay..except for Kate Middleton.duh!) not only that, you don't even meet the prince to start with.

BUT

what I can say is..

To be a human,
you were given a choice either to lead your life like a princess or better off a king or a queen. Because its your own life we're talking about.Its up to you how you mold it. You may not be a princess to a kingdom but you are a princess to your friends, families and everyone around you. Take charge!

To be a human,
you were meant to be creating your own path be it in career, lifestyle or futures. Why take up others empayar if you can create one by your own? Be independent!

To be a human,
you can let go of your emotions out loud. Freedom of expressions can be in many ways. Write it, draw it, talk about it, ramble it, cry over it, get up when you fall, jump high when you win, sleep, eat, run, do whatever you want as long as you keep living and standing, you're a winner. Be strong!

To be a human,
you have Allah to help you. The almighty Allah is the only one who can help you in this life. Just pray for it. You have Al-Quran and sunnah as your guidance and reference. Learn it and never leave it. And you still have your pet although not to help you but to give you something to cuddle and its cute! Be positive!

To be a human (not Kate Middleton!),
you have your own fair share of happiness. You may not marry a prince but you can choose to marry a nice person who you can count on and can make you as happy as a princess in a fairy tale where they live happily ever after.( you can even marry in a pumpkin carriage and the white horse if you want to. seriously! ) because to have a successful relationship is not about finding the right person, but learning to love the person you found. At the end of the day, love is a decision and not just a feeling. God determines who walks into your life BUT its you who decide who you let to walk away, who you let to stay and who you never let GO! Be happy!

P/s:Being me Is what I want!

XOXO,
Shaff

Some kind of Valedictory speech

sebab best student dapat buat valedictory speech kite pun nak la jugak kan..cuma yg membezakannya adalah best student dapat present his speech during the convocation ceremony and saya just dapat type jela..haha.. here it goes...

after all those struggling years..this is the day that im waiting for. the day where all the hard work were paid for. a degree scroll !!! its like a pay cheque for the labours except you will only get it once and for all..and its not money!

One and a half year of foundations studies and four years of degree is impossible to be done and over with without some special force from some special people and of course the almighty Allah s.w.t.

special thanks goes to..

mak and abah,
I wouldn't be here if not because of both of you. I would probably left law school long time ago if not because of your moral support. Thanks for those hard work to convince me that this is the right place for me. Thanks for those motivational talk every single moment. Thanks for listening to my ramblings. Thanks for comforting me whenever I had those stressful moment. Thanks so much from the deep of my heart for everything that I failed to mention here. Thank you for being such a great parents.

my kakak and two adik,
my world would probably turn upside down if you guys were not there. Thanks for being such a wonderful siblings cum bestfriends, for being the most loyal people and stand beside me through thick and thin (although you guys had no other choice but to be there as we are siblings..haha), for showing me that a failure is never a failure but just a second chance for us to keep going, for your understanding as I can be a little bit intolerable sometimes and for your honest comment that somehow grown me up. Thank you for being my kakak and my adik-adik (but we were more like happy friends living together..^^)

my bestest girlfriend ever,
siapalah saya di Aikol itu tanpa korang semua..haha. You guys are my bestfriends, roomates, classmates, mooting partners, groupmates assignments and everything that we can possibly be during the past 6 years..and counting! Thanks for become a shoulder for me to lean on, thanks for wiping my tears and listening to my sobbing, thanks for letting me cry randomly, thanks for keep supporting me throughout my failures and be there throughout my success, thanks for being my comrade to walk through this journey. congratulations,at last we all made it together. All our hard work were paid for!

my classmates,partners,seniors,juniors,girlfriends and boyfriends,
yeah..whomever you are im glad you all were once there to keep this life more interesting. my student's life would not be this interesting if none of you were there . seriously! we met we not understand why but we learn something more than money can buy and more than life can trade. Thank you for willing to be a part of my life story.

my lectures and tutors,
what can I say more. Obviously you guys are the most important people that brings me to where I am today. Despite my poor performance in class and my lack of participation in tutorials tapi anda semua tak pernah menolak kehadiran saya di iium.that im glad!

my supporting team,
ini termasuklah makcik kantin,abang photostat,kakak office,adik jaga kiosks,pakcik guard dan makcik guard dan semua yang terlibat menjaga keharmonian kehidupan saya sepanjang belajar disini. Tanpa korang kualiti hidup saya terjejas..hehe.much thanks!

my extra supporting team,
ini termasuk perkara2 yang berada di alam maya iaitu social media, google search, wikipedia, lexisnexis, lawnet, opac and ecetra yang tak pernah menghampakan saya sepanjang proses pembelajaran. (kena hantar thank you note nih..haha)

last but not least thank you to iium itself for accepting me to be a part of the team in this garden or knowledge and virtue.

I thank all of you with all my heart. Alhamdulillah and Thank you ^.^

p/s; ucapan yang agak poyo ini ikhlas datang dari sudut hati yang paling dalam..hehe.

sincerely from LLB(Hons)holder,
XXSHAFFXX

Kisah jodoh

Jodoh itu salah satu rezeki dari Allah. salah satu rahsia Allah yang sampai bila-bila pun kita takkan dapat tahu apa yang tersirat di sebaliknya. Yang kita sedar hanya the fact that indeed jodoh itu datang dan pergi tanpa sebarang warning beforehand. yang ada ditangan kita hanyalah pilihan sama ada untuk mengenggam rezeki jodoh itu atau membiarkan ia pergi. still at the end of the day kita tak akan tahu pun keputusan apa yang terbaik sebenarnya. Hanya perlu yakin yang segala yang berlaku tentu ada hikmah di sebaliknya.

Jodoh itu datang dalam pelbagai bentuk. persahabatan, persaudaraan, kekeluargaan, jodoh sebagai guru dan murid, jodoh sebagai bos dan pekerja ataupun yang paling menjadi hukum norma adalah jodoh sebagai suami isteri.

setelah jodoh itu hadir, ada sesuatu lagi yang belum kita pasti dan tak mungkin akan kita pasti sampai bila-bila, iaitu sampai bila jodoh itu akan dapat bertahan. Bukan kerana salah sesiapa tetapi memang itu yang telah ditetapkan. sekali lagi dijelaskan bahawa jodoh itu rezeki, dan rezeki itu mungkin hak kita untuk jangka masa yang lama dan boleh jadi jugak hanya untuk sementara.

Jadi, dapat disimpulkan disini bahawa, apabila rezeki jodoh itu hadir dalam apa jua bentuk sekalipun, jangan begitu mudah menolaknya tanpa usul periksa juga jangan terlalu taksub mendakapnya tanpa sebarang batasan. Bersederhanalah dan bersyukurlah. Selagi rezeki itu ada dalam genggaman jagalah ia sebaiknya kerana kita tidak tahu bila waktunya ia akan ditarik balik dari genggaman, dan bila rezeki itu ditarik balik, redhakanlah ia pergi kerana segala sesuatu itu bukan hak mutlak sesiapa kecuali Allah.

Selagi masih bernafas kita di muka bumi ini selagi itu masih berpeluang untuk kita mendapat rezeki dari yang maha esa. selagi terdaya, berusaha, berdoa dan bertawakkal semoga dimurahkan segala rezeki dan dipermudahkan segala urusan. Amin.

p/s; alhamdulillah for today. pray for a better tomorrow.

xoxo,
shaff

One more year went by..

Salam maal hijrah,

Kepada diri ini dan seluruh alam.

Either you like it or not, pat your shoulder and praise yourself..'what a great year you had there'. You deserves some credit for still standing and not give up!

Semua orang ada kesusahan mereka sendiri and to not having any problems and difficulties is to not having life at all. So having at least one problem is like a prove that you are indeed living this life.

Jangan takut dengan masalah. Sebab setiap masalah itu datang dengan penyelesaian macam problematic questions in mathematics. You might not see the answer at first glance but you'll get the answer eventually when you try to solve it using the correct formula.

So the main point is that..you just have to know the right formula!

Kalau ada buku living life for the dummies confirm dah jadi bestseller dah kan..tapi the thing is, there is no real formula on how to live life sebab tak ada seorang pun yang sama kisah hidupnya. Kita ada cerita masing-masing dan cerita orang lain itu cuma boleh jadi pendorong untuk kita tahu yang yeah Im not alone.

Walau apa pun cerita anda, walau macam mana pun susahnya hidup anda satu benda yang pasti kena ingat..Allah turunkan ujian itu kerana Dia tahu hambanya itu mampu melaluinya. Allah gave the strongest battle to His strongest soldiers. Survived it and indeed you are a warrior and proud!!

Jadi sempena tahun baru ini, semoga anda menjadi lebih kuat dengan segala ujian yang lepas dan lebih matang dengan segala ujian yang bakal mendatang.

P/s: Ucapan skema ini ikhlas dari saya,
The'shaff'
-the one who always try to win this battle-

Damn this feelings!

Kenapa perasaan manusia sangat complicated?

Tak boleh ke kalau rasa nak marah terus je marah or kalau rasa nak menangis terus je menangis or kalau rasa happy terus je cakap yes I'm happy..

Kenapa perlu ada rasa sakit hati sebab pendam kemarahan and rasa sesak dada sebab tahan air mata or rasa ego nak mengaku yang indeed I'am happy with him!

Damn this feeling!

Dulu aku tak macam ni pun..dulu akulah manusia paling cool..tak reti nak sentap-sentap, tak reti nak leleh air mata..

Sekarang aku jadi sangat fragile. Aku jadi sangat sensitif. Semua benda nak sentap.

Damn this feeling!

Mana perginya aku yang dulu?

Get a grip please!

Jangan mudah tumbang dengan perasaan.
Perasaan perlukan perisai.
Perasaan perlukan hati yang kental.
Perasaan tak perlukan emosi yang tak menentu.

Get a grip!

If you can't let go of the feelings, make sure you get a shield for those feelings..



The confused one,
-shaff-

Almost ended..

salam,

Its June already. Time flies and we don't even realize it.
Nasib baik ada calendar as a reminder, if not kita semua confirm dah hanyut dengan masa.
what's more important is my first sem for my second degree almost ended!
Rasa macam baru semalam je pergi beratur dekat AMAD untuk registeration and sekarang dah nak habis pun. Sekarang tengah final exam and tinggal satu paper je lagi before semua ni berakhir. Tapi bukanlah berakhir as in forever sebab saya still ada one more sem to go..still berakhirnya sem ni is one major relief for me. Suffer? yess! Hate? nopeee..

Mula-mula memang suffer. Dah berapa kali dah plan nak lari je dari sini and start kerja macam kawan-kawan lain tapi kalau dah memang tertulis dan termaktub bahawa rezeki saya is here, siapa yang boleh ubah kan? Create lah seribu alasan pun, Failed lah sejuta paper pun last-last dekat sini jugak. Register untuk sambung another degree and bang! macam tu je accepted.

And again, kisah suffering time first degree dulu pun berulanglah dengan jayanya..test failed, assingment last minute, tutorial yang menyesakkan nafas, presentations yang menggetarkan segala sendi lutut and yeah..everything in between it. But, one good thing about time is, it sure flies diligently and at the end of the day, hardship ends...

After all those hardships, yang tinggal for me is 3 month worth of holidays before i start back with the second semester. I think that's pretty cool! I can play all day long and play all day long and play allll dayyy looogggg...!!

Till then...tata^^

p/s: wanna play all day long with me?? hehe

The excited me,
<3 shaff <3

Doa untuk Baba..

Salam,

This post is for my dearest girl, Shueda..

Since saya merantau jauh dari rumah just for the sake of study and seeking knowledge,
I seldom went back to my hometown..unless ada cuti panjang and for sure cuti during weekend never give me the opportunity to go back home no matter how much i missed my family.

One of the place yang saya selalu stayed at during weekend is at Shuda's house. Since kitaorg foundations lagi saya selalu ikut dia balik rumah. I'm practically her family's adopted daughter. I'm getting attached to her family as if they're mine..staying at her house all these years make me feel that her life is also a part of  my life..i've known her Baba, i've known her Mama, i've known her brothers, cousins and aunts...

Early this year, Baba had passed away...leaving all of us in this world. His absence gave a great impact to all of us. Baba was a great man, and a great daddy to Shuda and family. I've seen it with my own eyes how much he loved them and how much they love him.

Sepanjang saya menjadi tetamu tetap kat rumah Shuda, Baba always welcomed me with a warm smile, always brought us to good places to eat and always shared with us his life experiences for us to learn from...and today is Baba's birthday but Baba is no longer around. And one thing i wish I've done is thank him big enough for all the kindness i've received all these years. Thank you so so much for everything.

Dearest shuda, i will always pray for you...for you to be strong and for you to live your life with nothing but happiness. Baba may not be around any longer..but he was once here and had gave you many pretty memories. Treasure those memories and at the same time create new memories for your life today and everyday that will come. I'll always stand beside you whenever you need me.

p/s: Al-Fatihah untuk arwah Baba. semoga rohnya akan ditempatkan di kalangan orang-orang yang beriman..ameen.


lots of love,
-shaff-

Bonding moment..

salam,

seperti yang telah sedia maklum...me is not alone. me comes with three other girls! equals to four ladies in the town bebeh!!
you'll never spotted us alone..itu pasti...well dulu la..time sama-sama study. time sama-sama muda remaja.
And sekarang bila dah abes study..semua gone to our separate ways..masing-masing dah kerja..and for sure tempat kerja sememangnya tak sama..dan yang masih belum kerja ni pun semestinya tidak akan berada di tempat kerja yang sama juga..tak macam dulu, celik-celik mata je dapat tengok muka masing-masing, sekarang ni semua dah jauh..and kalau nak jumpa kena check schedule masing-masing and plan a week before in advance for a date..

Bila dah lama tak jumpa..sgt2 missed moment happy together dulu...and sebab tu ktaorg decide nak meet up and have an awesome date together and the date comes with sleepover at shuda's house!!

last week plan tu berjaya dilaksanakan..horeyyy!!!
tapi one of us (wahida) yang juga masih belum bekerja tak dapat join sebab tuntutan assingment..huhu

Dua gadis yang dah bekerja tu (shuda and Azz) dtg jemput saya yang masih belum bekerja ni kat hostel..and sungguh excited berselca dalam kereta time2 traffic light merah sambil mulut masing2 tak stop talking and gossiping..update story la katakan..

then masing-masing lapar so decide nak makan meatball @ikea..tapi bila melihat insan lapar sungguh ramai kt ikea ktaorg tak jadi lah nak join sekaki. tapi dlm lapar2 tu sempat jugak la camwhore kt ikea..

lapar tetap lapar so decide lunch at vivo@thecurve!
sungguh lazat dan mengenyangkan insan2 kelaparan ini..

 after that jalan2 kt street market and TheCurve..

sambil jalan gossiping lagi..talking lagi...pastu shuda mengidam nak makan paddington pancake..moh ke paddington house of pancake ler kiter..high-tea!!! #melovedesserts
mmg baek punye ktaorg makan manisan malam2..

Bila malam dah meninggi, kaki masih gatal nak berjalan..so decide nak jejak i-city pulak..

lama giler ktaorg maen kat art trick museum..serious gempak!!

bila malam dah semakin tak muda...kena la kembali ke dasar..off to sleep at shuda's..and sgt best dapat sleepover sama2..time tu sgt berharap wahida dpt join..kalau sorg takder xcukup la korum...bintang pun tak lengkap tau...see!! we missed wahid!!!

Esok paginye tiba-tiba text msg masuk..and guess what?? wahida text ckp dia nak join lunch sama2..dia nak turun Subang semata nak jumpa ktaorang....aaaawww soo sweetttt..see! we never alone...kan dah cakap..tak mungkin tertinggalnye sorang...and bila datang pulak cik wahida ni...mulut semua start balik gossiping and talking all the way..semua cerita harus direwind and direpeat untuk bg update kat wahida pulak..

for lunch that day kitaorang decide nak makan makanan asian pulak...so moh ke Siam @subangparade yg menyajikan thai food!

and makanan kat sini sangat best!!! serious tak tipu punye!! (maap tak sempat nak snap gambar semua makanan sbb semua mengalami simptom 'too hungry to hold and snap picture'...
lunch that day sangat bahagia.

after lunch sempat bawak wahida pulak jalan-jalan..sunway piramid..and space U8..

that night shuda hantar kitaorg balik hostel..huhu sedey esok dah start kelas and those two kena pegi kerja..and tak tau bila lagi boley jumpa..yang pasti this is not the ending of us!!

good food.good day.with good people.created good story and happy memory.

That's what we called our bonding moment! XOXO


p/s: saya sangat bahagia dengan mereka. semoga this friendship will last for eternally..ameen.


lots of love,
-shaff-

Status: Graduated and still a miles to go!

salam,

Dearest world,

Its 2013 and this is my first entry.

Just to share one thing that ordinary but I'm still loving it.

I am finally graduated from Law School !!!!!
(hahahahahahah)

lame tak the announcement. gaya macam saya sorang je yang graduate..poyo je lebih. orang lain pun grad gak tapi tak kecoh pun...hahaha

there's a story here..don't you think??

here it goes...

After spm saya take up my driving licence then i applied for university...alhamdullillah got accepted to law school..walau at that point langsung tak ada any basic idea how the law school work..Yela,sepanjang sekolah menengah saya punya cita-cita always berubah-ubah depends on the situations..(chameleon punye ambition)..saya nak jadi businesswoman la, nak jadi nurse la, lecturer la, finance consultant la, economist la and the list goes on and on...BUT never a lawyer or anything in legal field sebab maybe saya tak pernah di exposekan  about that type of work kot...but it's all my mom punye decision..she advised me to put law as my first choice in university's application form..and tengok-tengok dapat pulak kan..so, kena la pergi..

Mula-mula masuk Foundation dulu buat prep...basically kitaorg belajar all the basic thing of law subject and all those time you tak tau berapa kali dah ai mental breakdown. culture shock pun ada gak sket...mula-mula sebab saya langsung xpernah jauh dari rumah and never ever tinggal kat asrama. Agak kelam-kabut di situ...mana nak sental baju sendiri, mana nak bangun pagi sendiri, cari makan sendiri, start cari kawan baru all over again...then masuk part kelas pulak..ini serious saya mental breakdown. It turn out that law school expecting all its students to talk all out in class...giler kau....saya ni insan yang paling pendiam dan pemalu di abad milenium ni tau. saya tak pernah volunter bercakap kat dalam kelas apatah lagi nak buat presentation. saya grad sekolah menengah before all the cikgu start to know my existence in the school...sampai begitu sekali tau..so, sepanjang setahun saya masuk law class saya nervous all day long takut kena panggil buat public speaking kat depan.And the thing is saya tak berjaya pun escape the routine sbb sooner or later nama saya akan dipanggil jugak and kalau dah setahun macam tu tak ke lali dah...the nice thing about human is, they live, they adapt and they survived.

Then masuk main campus and start lah the 4 years degree...time ni saya dah secured some friends and dah biasa hidup jauh dari family so it helps a lot..apa yang tough is the subjects...a lot harder that i expected it to be...long story short, after all the ups and downs of those 4 years akhirnya saya telah berjaya menamatkan perjalanan selama 4 tahun itu begitu juga dengan kawan-kawan yang lain..Alhamdulillah. And sepanjang perjalanan tu dah berjuta kali agaknya saya keep the blame on everyone but me sebab suruh saya enroll to law school. sejauh mana pun saya try lari from this path, things keep getting better sampai saya dah tak jumpa reason untuk berhenti from here. Allah memang dah tetapkan jalan nie untuk saya kan? seems that all these is His plan since the very beginning.

And now, i'm enrolling for my second degree which is Shariah Law. sebenarnya since mula lagi saya memang dah register for this double degree tapi macam biasa it's not entirely my choice...again..but apa-apa pun, here i'am. Sepanjang 4 tahun dulu, every sem saya bagi threat kat my parents and friends yang saya nak drop this double degree sebab language barrier..its in ARABIC kot!!!! seriously memang setiap sem saya convince myself yang i'm dropping this if i failed this shariah paper. tapi entah bagaimana ianya terjadi it keep getting out of hand. I passed and my name appeared in the list of double degree program. sekali lagi saya merasakan Allah telah memberi jalan ini untuk saya.

Yang pasti, hari ini, saya masih meneruskan jalan yang Allah bagi nie...i'm struggling to understand the language and the subject..extra work needed here sebab although saya pernah belajar arab dulu time sekolah menengah but saya tak pernah ambik berat and faham sebab i though i would never use it again after finished school...and sekarang..mode: terkial-kial memahami buku teks yang berbahasa arab dan memahami apa yang cuba dipertuturkan oleh ustaz-ustaz dan ustazah kat dalam kelas.sekian.

p/s: my bestie, shuda is currently doing her chambering...keep going girl!!, my bestie azrina is currently seeking a good place to start her chambering..good luck girl!!, and my bestie wahida is currently enrolling with me...lets fight together girl!!

p/s/s: my graduation ceremony is in October this year!! =)

they're with me all these years until today!!

(mode: pre-graduation photoshoot)

regards
-shaff-

Falling For Hamlet!

salam,

I love books. Okey. Itu memang dah judicially notice. Then one day about several months back saya nampak this one book dalam catalogue Kinokuniya…Falling For Hamlet. And once saya baca dua tiga line punye sinopsis kat dalam catalogue tu immediately saya yang terfalling for hamlet. I really want to read the book! Macam interesting sangat.

So, menapak lah ke Kinokuniya again dengan tujuan yang satu..just for Falling for Hamlet. Sampai je terus cari…and tak jumpa-jumpa…then terus tanya kat counter. Dapatlah assistance tolong carikan..tengok-tengok assistance cakap 'sorry, dah habis stock'…what? Sangatlah..selama ni cari buku apa pun ada je..time-time kesempitan dan mengidam ni jugak lah nak dihabiskan stocknya…huhu.sedih.

After that day, tiap kali saya melawat mana-mana bookstore mesti akan tercari jugak Falling for Hamlet tu. And sadly enough semua kedai nak terhabis pulak stocknya..memang sampai sudah saya tak dapat baca buku tu…sampai hati Hamlet..

Until this one fine day…I woke up early sebab ada breakfast date with my two besties and kitaorang lepak kat kedai breakfast until 10..so much for a breakfast..hehe. Then balik campus, singgah library cari buku untuk final exam..(yeah..sekarang tengah study week..), then singgah photocopy centre untuk photostat notes and print assignment..bila dah siap semua, then tetiba my sorang bestie ni cakap dia ada satu lagi benda nak print tapi saya tak boleh tgk…haha sangatlah kan..okey..fine.. ai tak tengok punye…so saya pun duduk lah berehat bawah pokok nun dari tempat photostat tu.

Lama pulak dia print kan…tapi sebab ai dah diberi mandat untuk tak tengok so takder la nak gi tanya kenapa tak siap-siap lagi..tengah saya membelek dan menelek notes-notes yang photostat tadi tiba-tiba datanglah kawan saya yang sorang ni bawak dua bundle besar kertas yang dah siap compiled. Baru nak tanya notes apa yang tebal sangat dia print tetiba…tadaaaaa!!!!! Bundle tebal itu berada di atas riba saya and bundle itu bertajuk FALLING FOR HAMLET!!!!!  Aaaaaahhhhhh!!! (okey, memang ai jerit kat situ…haha).

Seriously! Ini serious! Falling for Hamlet kat depan mata saya sekarang!!  Awwwwww…soooo sweeettt kawan saya ni…dia printkan the e-book version of Falling For Hamlet untuk saya and tulis notes kat dalam tu 'enjoy reading'….terharunya…who cares about all the bookstores yang selalu nak menghabiskan stock buku..ai ada bestie yang love me enough sampai sanggup search and printkan the book for me! Jelous enough? Haha. Memang rasa nak brag all the way..terima kasih kerana menjadikan hari ini bahagia…=) saya dapat benda yang saya dah cari berkurun lamanya dalam sekelip mata..Alhamdulillah.

p/s: thanks so so so much babe!! I'll treasure it well=)

regards,

-shaff-

The Big Bad Wolf..is back!

salam,

Anyone yang hard die fan of books for sure tau yang the Big Bad Wolf is back!!…and this time its bigger and better!!


The ultimate book sale of the entire universe tu was held at The Mines Convention Centre (MIECC) this time around. Memandangkan saya dah nak grad and bila dah balik ke hometown benda2 camni dah takder so saya decide nak menjejakkan kaki lah ke sana…


Sampai je entrance convention seriously orang ramai giler but the books was a lottt!! Seriously! Tempat tu dah la besar, pastu longgokkan buku pulak super banyak, pastu yang bestnya dia dah siap divide ikut genre but still setiap genre tu ada banyak pulak stack lain2..rambang mata giler nak pilih. Nasib baik saya tak bawak trolley kalau tak lagi banyak saya angkut.


After diangkat letak angkat letak, subdivided and substract, add itu add ini..last-last ini yang saya beli…



love letters of great women



1. Love letters from great women
Amik ko..jiwang tak jiwang ai nie…haha. This book is a compilations of love letters from what they called  a great women such as Queen Victoria…huhu..stalker pun ada ai ni..main2 baca surat cinta orang pulak! Tapi sbb I love something inspirational sbb tu beli.





if i'd known then



2. If I'd Know Then
Nie pun compilation letters jugak but yang ni bukan love letter tapi letter to younger self from various people yang dah berjaya sekarang sepertinya Puan Jessica Alba kita and Cik Natasha Bedingfield the penyanyi itu…haha. Sekali lagi saya jadi stalker yang menelek surat-surat mereka..ini pun inspirational jugak.





hamlet



3. Hamlet by William Shakespeare
Hamlet…should I tell more..semua orang tau Hamlet and this is the original play of Hamlet from William Shakespeare. Bahasanya sangatlah classic but that’s the mahal part..itu yang saya nak.



the dance



4. The Dance
This book is half poem and half storytelling. Combination of two things that I love.





summer and the city



5. Summer And The City
Seriously mula-mula saya amik buku nie sebab terfall in love with the cover. Macam secret diaries. Its pink and cute. Well it is a diary. A diary of Carrie Bradshaw…ala, yang dalam citer sex and the city tu..diary ni citer pasal life dia macam mana dia boleh jadi 'the Carrie Bradshaw' from just an ordinary girl..begitulah serba sedikitnya.





lyrics by STING



6. Lyrics by STING
Nie buku terakhir yang saya terambil waktu tengah queue nak bayar..sempat tau sambar satu walau tangan dah penuh kiri kanan dah time tu..this book pasal lyrics..of course..and semua lyrics from Sting ada dalam nie..mmg byk pun. Semua lyric dia la gamaknya dia letak..haha sebenarnya sepatah habuk lagu Sting pun saya tak pernah dengar. Tup tup gi beli buku lyric Sting pulak. Tebiat la jugak…kecik hati Pakcik Sting kalau dia tahu nie…tujuan sebenar saya beli is because bila saya bukak je..saya terus terjatuh hati dengan all the lyrics. Very meaningful lyrics. Saya sangat suka.


Overall saya berpuas hati dengan semua pembelian pada hari tersebut..owh, not to be forget…I met two nice girls that day..mak dapat kawan baru nak….haha. Kisahnya sebab saya tak tau jalan nak ke MIECC tu and unconsciously kaki saya ikut je budak berdua ni and bila tiba2 dorang stop baru saya tanya dorang camne nak ke MIECC tu and tgk2 dorang pun tak tau and tengah khusyuk ikut orang depan…after dah gelak2 kitaorang decide nak redah sesama ke MIECC tu and after that sepanjang hari lah kitorang bersama…siap dinner together tau before balik..and budak berdua tu baby lagi tau..baru 18 tahun…terasa diriku tua di saat itu tapi serious tak rasa gap. Thanks Nini and Sanah…!!


p/s : The Big Bad Wolf is until 23rd December 2012 so anyone yang tak pergi lagi sempat lagi nie…go go!

regards,
-shaff-

The E-day!!

salam,

To my dearest cousin and childhood bff...this post is specially for you! (hehe..terharu tak??..)

First of all..of course i have to say congratulation!!! tahniah tahniah..you are now someone's fiancé =)

second of all..sorry sebab i was not there..

third of all..i will surely be there on the wedding day! promise!!

honestly, saya nak sangat attend the engagement ceremony awak but then masa saya sangat terhad. when it come to time it become the most reliable excuse. nasib baik gambar-gambar awak dah diupload bolehla saya tgk...hehe. you look so happy and so beautiful..seriously! the only missing thing in the picture is me!  maybe i should consider crop my picture and paste dekat tengah2 gambar awak tu kan..haha.

ingat tak zaman kita kecik-kecik dulu..kita selalu borak pasal all the girls stuff and kawen is always in the list. and kita siap promise lagi tak nak couple and nak bercinta selepas kawen..nampak sangat dari kecik dah terpengaruh dengan novel cinta tapi its not a bad thing pun kan.. and hari ini awak dah buktikan it really can happen accordingly.

hidup nie jauh lagi..and berkahwin tu cuma satu lagi permulaan untuk hidup. saya akan selalu doakan kebahagiaan awak..i'm not in a position to give you all the marriage advises sebab i'm not married myself but the only thing i can tell you is just please be happy and if there is any probs along the way just remember that i'm always here to help=)

and here is the pics!!! (seriously i should just crop my pic and paste it in there!)

it's a one beautiful day!!

Rasulullah Shallallahu ‘alaihi wa Sallam bersabda:

خَيْرُ النِّكَاحِ أَيْسَرُهُ

“Sebaik-baik pernikahan adalah yang paling mudah.” (Hadis Riwayat Abu Daud, 6/13, no. 1808. Dinilai sahih oleh al-Albani)

(p/s: what do you want for your wedding gift??)

Regards,
-shaff-

fate and dream

5 years ago I still wearing my school uniform, attend school diligently and struggle for SPM…ok, honestly not that struggle or else I would be on the front page of newspaper already holding my straight A's transcript…still I've past all that.

At this minute I'm already in university and in my final year . Reading laws….time flies and I never realize it. Never had a slightest idea that this would be my fate and fated to be. Never in my list to take law as my subject and nothing in me that I can perceive as a future advocates and solicitor. I never thought I could do it but as I realize today I'm already half way through. Keep surviving a little more and I would be holding my double degree in civil and syariah law….who can predict that ?

The me that I see several years ago is just a little me with a dream to be a fashion designer and have my own boutique. That's the thing I always dream for since a little girl. Life lead me to a different path. I'm no way heading to anything called fashion and boutique….who can predict that?

Reading laws for all this years never stop me from building some hope else where. I still have my dream of becoming fashion's designer within me somewhere in my heart. I still doing some fashion sketches in my free time and I'm still sewing some materials here and there. Although I know this lead me to nothing but I did not expect for something. I already accept everything my life had gave to me.

Until one phone call change everything….a call that stated that I've been given the opportunity to do fashion designing course…with the condition I finish up my law degree first…the call that gave me new hope and the call that make me dare to dream again….who can predict that?

Some cheer for me and some say its a waste to abandon my law degree and some think I would waste all my time starting to study all over again but just so you know no one can put me down anymore. All this days I've done what I need to do but today its time for me to do what I want to do. Not a scroll that says degree and have my name on it that I'm looking for but a real experience and skills I'll get along the way that I've dream of.

World may need a person's formal qualifications but I only need my dream and I'll work with nothing but happiness.

A year later..

What had been wrote up there is what's on my though that time..then now I'm updating the though seriously. That day,Yes I'm happy to get the opportunity to do fashion designing. But today, I' don't know if I'am that happy anymore. Since the day I got the good news I search all day long about the courses and the thing is…it is way too expensive! And until today I still studying and living on my parents cost. And not a single cent I pay them back. If I were to enroll again in fashion school it will take them to spend a whole lot fortune all over again on me. I seriously don't want that. I'am now in my final sem of law degree. Insyaallah I will grad soon. And my though is, I want to pay them back. My only dream now is to grad and get a proper job, to make my parents proud and to pay all the love they gave to me until today. I'm happy as I am today. Yes, fashion designing is my dream but not all dream can come true and I believe Allah have better plan for me in this path. Just pray for the best!

p/s: Allah tahu apa yang terbaik untuk kita!

Regards,

-shaff-

After a long hiatus..

Salam,


After stuck agak lama depan lappy..this is how it goes…


1. When was the last time I saw this blog?? …(long pause..no answer!) true. Because me myself donno how long it is. Bukan nak suruh update blog, bukak tengok pun tak..penat je nuffnang update iklan hari-hari, tak dapat nak tgk. Reason is: busy?..(too lame excuse), no internet?..(yes but its been long since I registered for free wifi)..real is..hati terasa keberatan nak tulis. Sebabnya I though no one would read it so most of the time I wrote random stuff. Then bila saya dapat tau ada insan yang baca all the random stuff saya jadi segan dengan diri sendiri. I feel that I should have write better. Saya yang lame sebenarnya. This blog is public so everyone have their right to read it. Saya masih di takuk lama. Saya masih seorang shaff yang secretive. It took me this long hiatus to get a grip and keep writing sebab that person yang read all my entries said that 'memang purpose blog is for everyone to read it so kenapa nak malu pulak..' (awak, if you happen to read this..no offence okey.=) and it took me this long hiatus untuk just be brave and write again.


2. I actually still wrote some stuff but I keep it saved in my lappy. Thanks kepada microsoft kerana telah mencipta program Microsoft Office One Note. This one note thingy is super cool. it is as if you were writing in your blog but in offline mode. The feeling is the same tapi korang tau for sure no one will read it. So after this I will upload all stuff that I've been wrote all this while into the real blog sebab sekarang saya macam dah found a reason to write again.


3. I'm in my final sem already..Insyaallah will grad soon. Busy but still myself with the same lifestyle, with the same bestfriends and with the same status!..hehe.( lame tak? Almost a year hiatus but I'm still the same me. Tapi saya tak boring pun. My life is beautiful. Alhamdulillah)


p/s: banyak nak di update? Mana nak start dulu yea??




Regards,
-shaff-

TALE: CHAPTER 16

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