JANJI ALLAH

Allah dah janji. Doa-doa orang yang teraniaya itu makbul. Maka jika kau rasa kau teraniaya, berdoalah. Mudah-mudahan Allah setuju.

Tetapi atas dasar apa doa itu? Doa untuk membalas dendamkah? Doa untuk melihat keruntuhan diakah? Doa semoga dia sengsarakah?

Tidak. Bagi aku, sebaik-baik doa adalah ‘aku telah memaafkan kesalahan kau keatasku dan segala perbuatan kau keatasku dan semoga Allah juga  mengampunkan dosa-dosa yang telah kau lakukan keatasNya’.

Kerana apa? Kerana bagi aku Allah lebih tau apa yang terbaik untuk setiap hamba-hambanya. Allah lebih arif pembalasan apakah yang paling setimpal buat dia. Mungkin hati ini meronta untuk membalas dendam. Mungkin mulut ini paling senang untuk ucapkan ‘aku tak akan maafkan dia’. Tapi sampai bila?

Allah dah kata, kalau kau berbuat silap sesama manusia maka minta maaflah kepada manusia itu sendiri. Jika sehingga ke mati kau belum meminta maaf maka carilah dia untuk meminta maaf di akhirat kelak. Tapi, hendakkah kita menangguhkan perjalanan kita di akhirat kelak semata-mata kerana masih ada insan-insan yang tengah berusaha merangkak mencari kemaafan kita? Dia mungkin lambat ke tempat perhitungan kerana kesalahan dia tapi kau kena ingat, kau juga mungkin lambat kerana harus menantikannya. Berbaloikah?

Bagi aku, tidak. Kerana apa? Kerana biar sahaja Allah yang menghitung kesalahan dia. Kita bukan maksum. Kita hanya hamba Allah yang biasa. Maka sebaiknya biarlah dia bersuka ria meraikan kemenangannya di dunia ini selagi boleh. Kerana di akhirat kelak akan ada satu lagi perhitungan buat dia. Di situ, yang benar pasti benar dan yang salah pasti salah. Itu ketetapan Allah.

Sehingga hari itu datang. Maafkanlah dia dan bergembiralah. Allah tahu semua yang benar dan Allah tak akan pernah membiarkan yang salah itu berlalu pergi.

P/s: Janji Allah itu pasti. Yakin dan fahamkan. 

cuma seorang hamba Allah,

-Shaff-

2016. 27. Married.

Hello there.

Its 2016. And here's the long overdue story.

I was married last year on 6.6.2015. Yawn. Its almost a year in a few days and here i am writing about the big event of my life. BIG YAWN.

The thing is, i might give birth to our first baby anytime soon hence the wedding story. Because who might know my kids might read this entry one day and they might ask where's the wedding story. (so perasan)

6.6.2015

With one lafaz of Akad, i am a wife to this gentleman name Mr. N. (I'll post up his picture right after this. He deserve that much acknowledgment to be by my side till death do us part)

I met him through my parents and we get to know each other for about a year before we decided to get married (although he did proposed me after 3 days of getting to know each other). And then he flew to UK for his master studies and i was completing my second degree. So basically we only see each other twice before he was departed. And for the whole one year of getting to know each other, It was a long distance relationship. Because of the time differences and busy schedule, we only get to text each other on weekend and because of my 'poyo' request to jaga the adab and everything he only called me once a month.

For that one year, there was so many ups and down between us (well most of it was because of me!) I feel like my life was so complicated and that i am not ready to handle a man in my life (so drama) but above all of my attitude, he was so patient and loyal towards me. He never retract his proposal despite everything that i ever said or done to him (so baik la this guy).

So when he finally came back from his study, we did make prior arrangement to meet at the KLIA and i was so nervous i suspect there was a big fat elephant thumping in my stomach. Meeting him once again after a year communicating through text only really is a weird thing (in a good way). I feel like all those one year was vanish away and that day was the first day we really get to know each other. Like a blind date kinda feeling (although i never been to one before). We were so awkward and we don't know what to say to each other.

After some time, he tried to break the ice and make a conversation. It went well. He gave me a lot of beautiful stuff he bought throughout that one year and collect it all to give it to me that day. (And of course the insensitive me have nothing to give back to him not even a welcome home card! SIGH)

That day went so well and when its time for him to take the flight home ( he already bought flight ticket to hometown that same day so we spend  time only in between his flight schedule) i already feel attached to him. So again, we separated to a different city.

After that he was busy with finding job and I was busy with my Chambering (9 month internship to be advocates and solicitors) and we only get to see each other when he came to KL and believe it or not we never really had a proper date where i get to wear nice outfit and make up ( i really hope we have time to do that again).

On Janury 2015, at the end of my 9 month Chambering, the marriage proposal came again. And this time it was my father who brought that up (LOL thanks Dad). This time around i really don't have anymore reason to say no as i've already graduated and have proper job. So it's a YES. Once again we met each other as requested by our parents to discuss the date for marriage (that night his family came to my house for proper discussion). He came with that small 'kalendar cina' and highlighted to me all the proposed date (i can't stop laughing thinking about that) and we decided 6.6.2015 (he's so keen towards nice number arrangement).

That night, i was engaged to him. Although it was only a mere gathering to discuss our relationship but his family came with a ring ( and i am so not ready for an engagement ceremony i wore only tudung sarung and plain jubah. LOL). We only have less than 6 month to prepare for the wedding and as i am working in KL and only went back home occasionally it was my dear Mom who arrange for everything (Love you Mom!) and i only went back home 3 days before the wedding.

Alhamdulillah everything went well. The akad nikah was in the morning of 6.6.2015 and we had our reception that same night. And because we were both from the same hometown we had a combine wedding for both family. It was so crowded i cant even remember exactly who came to hug me the entire night and i was so hungry during the event but i can't eat that much (blame the tight corset. women's issue!)

And of course my 3 bff came to the wedding as my bridesmaid (big hugs girls!) and most of my classmates in school and university also came that night and it was a very beautiful event meeting up everyone after some time.

That was one year ago. Our Anniversary is coming in 4 days. How times flies. Being a wife to Mr. N is the best decision i ever made.

P/S: We might not be a perfect person but we were perfect for each other =)


Lots of love,
-Shaff-

Layakkah kita?

Manusia mengeluh bila ditimpa kesusahaan tapi terlupa untuk bersyukur atas seribu kebaikan.

Sedar tak kita bahawa Allah tak tarik satu pun nikmat daripada kita, tapi tak pernah pula kita bersyukur. Sebab apa? Sebab selagi kita tak nampak ada benda hilang kita lupa benda itu hanya pinjaman.

Allah Cuma tambah satu sahaja lagi beban atas bahu kita itu pun kita dah mengeluh macam esok dah hilang nyawa. Sebab apa? Sebab fitrah manusia, yang beban nak diungkit yang nikmat lupa nak disyukuri.

Jadi, layakkah kita mengeluh lagi?

Hutang manusia dengan manusia sampai kau sanggup berbunuhan. Tapi hutang manusia dengan Allah tiada siapa pula yang peduli.  Sebab apa? Sebab kita lupa azab neraka itu selagi tak timbul depan mata. Kau berhutang dengan manusia kau fikir sampai tak boleh tidur malam. Punyalah gelisah. Takut dengan manusia punya pasal . Tapi bila kau hutang solat dengan Allah, tak solat isya’ pun kau mampu lagi tidur nyenyak sampai ke pagi sampai terhutang pula solat subuh. Bila nak bayar tu? Tak gelisah pun. Maksudnya apa? Tak takut dengan Allah kah?  

Jadi, layakkah kita mengeluh lagi?

Hutang rumah, hutang ptptn, hutang kredit kad semua tu ada dateline yang kau boleh nampak tapi kau takut bukan main lagi. Hutang Allah yang kau tak nampak dateline tu sikit pun kau tak takut. Mana tau tidur malam ni esok Allah dah tarik nyawa. Tak risaukah? Kalau risau kenapa tak peduli?

Dalam Allah bagi ujian tu Dia tak tarik satu pun lagi nikmat daripada kau yang Dia bagi selama ini. selagi kau masih ada atap di atas kepala, kau masih ada kesihatan yang terjaga, kau masih ada juadah di atas meja, bersyukurlah.  Sebab semua itu bukan hak milik mutlak pun. Mana tau esok-esok dah tiada.  Selagi masih ada nyawa dalam jasad kau, bersyukurlah. Itu tandanya masih ada masa untuk kau selesaikannya. Allah tak bagi ujian itu tanpa sebab.  Allah bagi ujian itu untuk tengok sejauh mana kau yakin dengan Dia. Kalau awal lagi kau dah merungut, itu tandanya awal lagi kau dah kandas, awal lagi kau dah tewas. Asyik nak senang saja, buat apa hidup atas dunia? Ingatlah, dunia bukan tempat untuk bersenang-lenang, tapi dunia hanyalah tempat persinggahan untuk kumpul dana supaya kita dapat bersenang-lenang di syurga. Kucing di jalanan pun Allah tak bagi makan free tanpa usaha, inikan pula manusia.

Jadi, layakkah kita mengeluh lagi?

Satu saja soalan aku nak tanya. Andai kata Allah bagi pilihan pada kau untuk Dia tarik balik satu sahaja nikmat dari kau demi menyelesaikan segala masalah yang kau ada, nikmat apakah yang sanggup kau korbankan? Kesihatankah? Anak isterikah? Mak ayahkah? Pekerjaankah? Nyawakah? Kalau satu pun bukan, layakkah kau mengeluh?

Dalam sebegitu banyak nikmat yang Dia bagi siapa kita untuk mempersoalkan sedikit masalah yang Dia suruh kita tempuh.

Hidup. Hadap. Itu sahaja.

P/s: saling ingat-mengingati. sebab itu sahaja yang aku mampu. 

xoxo,

-Shaff-

They may have money but they need friends

Being a lawyer is not all about winning the case but keeping your client happy is one of the basic duty.

I went out for a luncheon with the clients aka the vips that have million of assets in their hands but one thing I saw what they really need is someone to talk to and keep them company. They may have money but what they really need is some friends. A nice friends where they can rely on and not just be there because of the money.

It was a nice luncheon at the Royale Chulan hotel ( the ordinary me wouldn't have lunch there just for fun!) the lunch buffet there cost me my entire week's lunch expenses.

We talked the entire journey to the hotel and talk some more on our journey back. It was so funny how they can change the subject from discussing seriously on the missing flight of MH370 to how it was hard to find a banana nowadays. And then they were talking so seriously on their theory of how the plane can be hijacked and suddenly stop talking and change the subject to how beautiful the bougainvillea is. Then they talk about how they think their private driver had cheated on them on the fuel expenses to suddently discussing what type of tree they should start plant at their new home. They also expressed their worries on the contractors that they hired to repair some defects on their house but try to knock down everything else as well just to get a higher pay.

I feel sorry for them. And I feel mad at how bad this world can be with all those hypocrite that live only for money. why can't people live with more sincerity? why can't we be friends not just for benefit?

when I thanked them for the lunch the thing that they said really touched me..

" Don't thanks me, we should thanked you. Its not about the lunch its about the company"

I smile all the way. Making people happy is whats make me happy. They are nice peoples. and they have millions in their savings but they did not need that. what they really need is a loyal person that can work with them with sincerity. Not a cheating driver, not a contractor who came and renovate their house unnecessarily and charged double on everything and not a friend who came by just to do business. They need real friends and real company. they need family...and a cat!..

You might not know this but sometimes your simple presence is the only thing that someone really need at that time and the only thing you have to do is to be there!

So the next time someone ask for your company, Don't let them down. you might be the only person they have and the only person they hope for.

p/s: Be there for your love one. family, friends or anyone that need you..and be sincere. Nothing beats a piece of nice heart.

Love ya,
XXSHAFFXX